Gah I don't like to blog, but I guess I'm so bored of finding the values of tangible assets, that blogging seems to be a lot more fun. Bleagh.

Anyway, I went to Johor last Saturday...went to a relatives' house who bought a bungalow there, somewhere near Austin Heights. The owners are Singaporeans working in Singapore, they just go back and forth from Singapore to Johor every week. The house is big. Why do they want to have a house there? To enjoy the Jusco shopping mall? Ah well.

Oh, then after that we decided to stay at this hotel which I forgot the name of. That hotel is gigantic too, can fit like, 10 king-sized beds in one room. Really. It only has 3 stories, but it has one very looong hallway.

I went swimming at the pool too. Gosh I love my baby cousins. The younger ones tend to not like swimming. Tried to persuade them to enter the water but they are too afraid.

I gave one of them the blue floating styrofoam to swim with, but he didn't move from the edge of the pool. He just took it, put his goggles on top of it, then push it back and forth, pretending it's a boat. He seems to enjoy it though.

Oh and you know how crazy the fireworks can get in Malaysia. I went out of my room at 12am and I was terrified of the sound of 'bombs' that echo down the long and dark hallway. Haa. It was pretty though. Look out the window and, with the golf course in the foreground, in the background we can see fireworks sprouting out from seven different places in Johor. And since my aunt stayed at the opposite end of the hotel, I ran across the hall from my room to hers, and saw even more fireworks.

Guess that's what jw and kim experience when they go back to Malaysia for cny eh.

Heh...

Anyway I keep wanting to post this but never did:
Talking Cock's Wu Liao Video of the Week.
To send an error report...or not to send an error report

Right. Now I have to go back to studying. I got to complete at least 6 more questions before I sleep tonight. Die die I cannot graduate with a Third Class. Mock Exams in 4 weeks time. Sigh. Good times never last. Then again, neither do the bad times. Still waiting for the recession to end.

Oh and Happy New Year. Happy...right...happy indeed.

'Thank God they allowed me to see her where she lay...and they showed her to me,' he [Lo Hwei Yen's husband] said. 'She still looked very beautiful.'

I sure hope he gets through this alright...sigh...it's still in the papers...I seriously thought terrorists attacks like the Mumbai attacks only happen in anime like Gundam or Code Geass which I really enjoy and laugh at the scenes with lotsa bloodshed, but looking at it happening in real life to a Singaporean is really heart-wrenching. It's like my favourite anime character dieing and I would cry when I watch it except that this is reaL. What's wrong with those terrorists?? Islam condemns this kind of senseless killings, but why do they continue with it with the full notion of knowing they wouuld get caught? There has to be a better way to spend our lives than training terrorists right? Will there be a day when these terrible things only happen in anime and never in real life?

Fingers got itchy again so I created another blogskin...the things I do when I'm suppose to be doing my assignment.

Hehe anyway, last month was good...hari raya is the same old...the better parts are meeting up a couple of times with some friends...I love meeting up with friends...it doesn't matter where we are (it doesn't cos I forgot the name of the place where we ate lunch eheheh), as long as we are with good company.

And that is my summary for last month. Haha ok I'm terrible at blogging...

Now I need to finish up on my FR assignment...and they are starting to sell Christmas decorations...and this will be the last year when I will suffer through Christmas...James will sure give us lotsa work...but Christmas next year I won't need to suffer anymore yeah! Just real work to look forward to...how fun! Ok I can stop babbling now...

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You simple-minded fool. Are you, by any chance, still evolving? ~ Franziska von Karma in Phoenix Wright Ace Attorney

Sham, I think you're the only one who still visits my blog lah...I spend more time making blogskins instead of actually blogging...not that I make lotsa blogskins...haa...

So what have I been up to?? Nothing much actually...just ran away from home like two months ago...cos of this hollering from my sis:

"You are so STUPID AND USELESS. Always using the computer and doing nothing. I want to use the computer ok. Why must you disturb me? You think you're so smart ah? Go to your room lah. Go lock yourself in your room. I don't want to see your face."

And she kept repeating the "Go lock yourself in your room." And I screamed at her that I wanted to do that, except that she was standing right there in front of my door, blocking it so I can't close it to do as she politely requested, so we just screamed at each other in front of my room door.

And when she finally let me slam the door, I grabbed a few clothes from my cupboard, throw them in my bag and stomp out of the house...went over to my aunt's place...

Meaning I ran away lah...gone for over a month...heh...although I seldom use the computer there, but I did enjoy my time there. Cos my aunt has 4 kids, the oldest is only 6 yrs old, and gosh I love those kids...

I don't know how children can bring so much joy to life with just their cute faces...always asking about me, opening my room door in the morning to wake me up, running to the door when I reach home from school, always disturbing me and asking me to feed them when I need to eat my lunch or dinner...it's so much more different than being at home...At home I feel unwanted, over there, I'm always being asked for attention...

Hee...the third brother...he is the fatest one...he calls me Kak Iya cos he still can't speak properly...he is also very irritating, always following his siblings around and disturbing them. And when irritated, his siblings would just scream at him.

But got once I was quite surprised...once after a screaming session, the big brother just said, "Taqif cute ah. Huuuug." And they sat there and hugged for a long time. It's a really cute scene but seriously...What's up with that?? I'm amazed at how forgiving his brother is. I would never hug my sister suddenly after an argument...would I do that 15 years back?

Sigh...and now I'm back at my own house for Hari Raya, I made up with my sister and all...but how I wish I can be a kid again...sigh...

Well I better switch off my computer now...I just spent a long time watching Nodame Cantabile...and I enjoyed the last episode hehe...the drama is quite good if you skip all the boring parts...gosh the yaoi parts were really irritating...anyway I was quite surprised when Chiaki hugged Noda in that scene by the river...sweet love...and now I'm not sure which drama to watch next...hee...and fall season anime coming up...

Well...life with my brother-in-law staying at our place is nice, but hasn't always been pleasant. I can't wait for them to get a new house. That's very bad of me, I know.

Other than that, I've ended my job and now I'm gonna help my uncle out with his finance in his company...unless they change their mind and decide they don't need my help anymore...It's my aunt who asked me for help cos she felt she had been neglecting her children cos of the company...

Sigh...I kinda miss my colleagues. They are nice people but the job itself can be too much sometimes. Oh and there's this person in my workplace who is very fatherly and very nice to talk to. He's one of the head in the engineering side. When he wants to scold us cos we keep disturbing him regarding our work, he'll scold in such a delicate way that I just had to smile among my feelings of guilt. Hehe...he always answers and explains everything to us in detail and in a very calm manner...I'm not sure how to explain it but I will definitely miss him cos he's different...he just has this charisma which is admirable...

Hmm...and other than that I had challets in the previous two weeks which I didn't write about here although I had a great time there :) Cycling, watching dvds, hanging out with old friends at the beach...

Oh ya I had been wondering silly things...when Muslims pray they have to face the Kaa'bah, no matter which part of the world they are at...so if there are Muslims on the Firefly (a kinda spaceship), which direction do they face when they want to do their prayers? Same goes for coordinators in Gundam Seed who live in space colonies which orbit Earth...which direction do they face? Haha...I was wondering this during my religious class...I'm so crappy sometimes...

Well...gah...I still feel I'm wasting my life away cos I don't know what exactly I want. Life is great, sure, but what about my future...there are many things which I keep avoiding but I know I have to face them eventually, since I'm graduating next year...time flies...

On a happy note, it's National Day! I watched a bit of the preview last week on the Singapore Flyer (oh the ride is quite nice but my grandma said that it was really nothing much...I think it would be much cooler when the IRs are up..) Anyway, Happy Birthday Singapore! How old are you again? I'm loosing track of the years hehex

MY HANDPHONE GOT STOLEN and it's not not my friend's fault and I will not not blame her cos it's not not her fault. It's not fair la. How many times have I said that over the past few weeks?

It's not fair that Myanmar and China had to suffer such terrible disasters. It's not fair that my friends have to lose their parents, when their parents haven't seen them on their wedding day. It's not fair that my friend has a boyfriend whom she keeps bringing with her to our study session so they can touch each other, while I sit there not feeling jealous. It's not fair that my exams are the last to end among my friends. It's not fair that my handphone have to get stolen!

We live in Singapore lei, are you that deprived till you have to steal things and hurt others? I went through that rebellious stage of stealing and I used to just say it's the survival of the fittest, but I don't do that anymore cos I know this word called empathy. Work hard for what you want la, why must resort to stealing? I hate this kind of people!

Argh...ok what happened was I was buying food from s11 and my friend was sitting like 2 tables away with our things and usually she waits for me to get back before she goes to buy, but that day she said she was very hungry so she left, thinking that I would be back in less than two seconds but I wasn't cos I was adding sambal to my food and all that. Well, I turned around looking for my friend but she wasn't there and I automatically thought that I was the blur one who forgot which seat we were sitting at. In hindsight after looking at the cctv, if I had just turned to my left at that exacT moment, I would have seen a guy walking off with our bags! But I wasn't looking for my bag what...I was looking for my friend's face...haiz...then we asked around and ran around the place looking for that idiot till we were huffing and puffing.

Then a lady came and said to check the cctv so we checked the cctv and I realised it was some malay guy loitering around who stole our stuff...or is it an indonesian...the cctv was not clear la.

We made a report to the police and all, since my friend also lost her stuff, including her handphone and mp3, thus she's in a worst state than I'm in...hai...I really wish that thief gets striked down by lightning while crossing the road and gets knocked down by a car and then gets striked by lightning agaiN, until he writhers up and dies and rots up in hell.

And while he rots, I have to start collecting my friend's contact numbers. Wonderful. As if I'm not stressed enough. And my friend saw me on that same day while I wanted to get my new sim card, and my face was so black at that time, I felt so silly for bumping into him. Haiz...I can't believe I still have to study after all this...

Ok girl, now move on or die for your exams.

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Life is unfair. That's the most idiotic sentence in the English Language.

My wisdom teeth surgery! You know, when they first pushed my bed down the corridor towards the surgery room, it was like a roller coaster ride, but its the part at the peak of the track, the dread just before the sudden fall...haha.

And after the surgery when I woke up from the General Anaesthasia, I started crying and crying and crying...I can't help it...I kept asking myself...where are all the handsome doctors just before I fell asleep?? Sigh...The nurses were all asking me why was I crying...How in the world do they expect me to answer with my swollen mouth?? Then they pushed me back to the waiting room where my mum was waiting for me and I felt so silly for crying...I can't exactly talk to her anyway, so I cried to sleep...

Four hours later, I still felt nauseous and had a terrible headache. There's this nurse which kept saying I shouldn't lie on the bed for so long, and kept pushing the top of the bed higher and higher so that I'm in a sitting position. Tsk...I wanted to throw the pillow at her man. But there's a nicer nurse too, who gave me ice-cream! So I was quite satisfied.

When I finally had the energy to go home, my dearest dad picked me up in the car, and I acted all happy, made lame jokes and conversation all the way home (in a funny voice cos I can't open my mouth fully), like how I was giggling just before the doctor injected me to sleep, and the doctor was surprised and said, "People are scared but you are laughing!" Actually I was scared lah, that's why I was giggling! Hah.

And when I reached home, I think the excitement took too much from me, cos I collapse on the sofa out of sheer exhaustion, and my headache came back, and then I started vomiting.....hip hip hooray...no need to study for one week...not.

Ah my first surgery...not much, but it's still an experience. Did I mention that I love painkillers? If only we can eat more of it at one go...haix...Oh well at least I'm still alive...Alhamdulillah.

What do I expect after the wisdom tooth surgery?
There will be pain and swelling in that side of the cheek which may sometimes be accompanied by a "blue-black" in the facial skin. You may not be able to open your mouth wide. All these would normally subside in five to seven days after the operation.

The following is a list of known risks and and complications associated specifically with impacted, wisdom teeth surgery:
7. Presence of foreign body in surgical site eg broken instrument.

The common but transient side-efects that may occur as a result of the anaesthesia are:
3. Inability to pass urine.

Alright! Pray for my wisdom teeth to be removed smoothly tomorrow. I still need to study but I really don't look forward to studying in the next five to seven days. Ah well...it's just a minor surgery so I should be thankful it's minor.

Yeah, another self-made blogskin! It took me another year cos I seldom go Photoshop...And it's a bit too elaborate but I don't care already...fire fire everywhere lalala hahaha...

Anyway, it's an improvement from my previous one, which I used Paint hah. Cheers to Photoshop! (Just why must it be so expensive??) And cheers to my friend who bought me the manga for my birthday, which I eventually used to scan in the picture and to design my blog. And cheers to Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle!

And since I'm not in the mood to blog, back to my studies!

I am currently making a new blogskin and it can really give me a headache...hah the things I do when my exams are near...I've really been wasting my time la...buying the rubrics cube and all...oh and I am proud to say that I have conQuered the rubrics cube!!! Well the 3 by 3 by 3 one anyway...

And so...we have mock exams before our real exams right...and I manage to pass my mock exam paper (while some people fail) but so what? It's not the real thing...and that is one of the things that presses the button for people to say, wah you are so hardworking...And again, people still expect me to graduate with First Class Honors? Please la. I'm not hardworking. I study cos I regret coming to this school and don't want to waste my three years. Ok I don't regret, I love my life right now. Met lotsa interesting people and all...but then even if we graduate with a First Class Honors, real working life is still not going to be easy. Haix...funny how fast time flies and soon I'm going to be a full-time working adult.

Anyway, I had a nice birthday this year. Went out with a few of my closest friends who give such nice and interesting presents. I love the zoo hehe. Even got a flower for Valentine's Day from my girlfriends. And my baby cousin wasn't born on the 9th but on the 8th of February instead. Hehe. He's so cute!

Ok I gotto go off for tuition now...

Oh ya I wanted to say something lame...the other day I was online in the morning and I couldn't decide whether I should switch on 987fm to listen to the deejays and so I ask myself out loud, "Hmmm should I listen to Dean & Sam?" and I was like, What??? It's Dan & Young, not Dean & Sam! I was too obsessed with the Supernatural series. Obviously, I was surfing for Supernatural sites at that time. Hehe.

And the Bleach manga is getting exciting again! Many fighting scenes coming up...I can't wait for the next chapter to come out. Ok ok I'm gonna be late for tuition...

My aunt's having a baby soon and he's due on 11th Feb, but I'm wishing she'd give birth on the 9th Feb instead...haha wouldn't that be fun! I would really love my baby cousin cos then I'd be exactly 21 years older than him hehe. But but but I want to remain 20 forever! Haha...and Valentine's Day is coming too, not that it matters but I want to receive a real life flower please. Hmmm...Maybe I'd just buy one and give it to myself ahahah...

Ok I got to study! My first paper is on 26th Feb!

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"We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think.
When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves." ~Buddha

I had a bad dream. I dreamt that I died. I had a bad dream at 2am and now I'm too afraid to go back to sleep. And here I am online instead of doing some prayers to help me calm down. And worse I don't feel like talking about this dream so I don't want to talk to anyone at all right now. I hate myself. I think I know why I had that dream. But I still don't want to go back to sleep. Sigh.

What to blog about...Went fishing with my sister and her fiance's family at Punggol the other day. I love fishing...

Three of the Angling Club guys went Kelong again. I'm jealous.

Denzil has an msn display picture of himself holding a 1-metre-long Mekong Cat Fish which he caught in Thailand. I envy him.

Then the other day jw, sham, eunice and I went Labrador Park to enjoy nature. (Saw Kaijing who was coming back from sotonging at 11am and felt like fishing again.....but I didn't go there to fish. Sigh.) I love the clean blue waters at Labrador Park...and I love meeting up with my secondary school friends...we talked about going to Corsica next year! Hahaha...I must work hard and save enough money! If I manage to save enough then I'm definitely going! Hehehe...

And then I also went rock climbing with my cousins. I really love rock climbing...that great sense of achievement when I reach the top...I miss it...And the aching muscles when I wake up the next day...I miss that too...Haha...

And that stupid crush is still in my head. I don't like having crushes. If there's a Malay version of him I'd take him. No, cannot. I don't want to chase guys.

Haa...holidays till Wednesday...but must still study...sigh...and I'm still being my lazy self lah. I've wasted 4 hours...hah...so...I think my new years resolution is to stop procrastinating on my work and also on my daily chores. Did I make this resolution last year? :P

And now I shall go clean up my room...I really don't want to sleep.

Oh and have a Happy Chocolaty 2008 everyone :)

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Strength is the capacity to break a chocolate bar into four pieces with your bare hands - and then eat just one of the pieces ~Judith Viorst

Three days two nights out at the kelong near Sibu Malaysia...I must blog about it! Though there's a lot of things I should have blogged about but never bothered to. Haha. Man the sea is GreaT!

I just joined Angling Club and I'm really enjoying the people and the activities. I love the excitement of catching fishes! I love the people there. There's just too many things to talk about! And the feeling of using my first rod to catch fishes is great...I think I brought home around 5kg of fish haha...ahahah maybe not that much la. I love my Cherrywood rod and my Mitchell reel! Though I probably need to get other rods for bigger fishes. That second-hand orange reel line I got is very light and very bright orange hehe...I love to cast it and see it fly in the wind.

I tried to catch a todak but caught nothing instead...well bad luck I guess. I tried my sotong lure too but I didnt catch any sotong either. And I tried to catch a big seklar (sp?) with Humphrey's rod but I didn't catch one either. Gosh...why all the times I try to catch a fish different from the normal fishes, I fail one...haha. My friend caught many big seklar and she sold them haha. Though she sold them cheap it's still money right. I must try harder to get bigger fishes haha!

It's amazing, three days two nights of continuous fishing. I'm surprised my friend can tahan very long cos I took many breaks in between. Ooh and the freshly sliced seklar with wasabi is damn nice. Three days two nights and 9 meals...great food too hehe.

And I love the second night when my astronomer friend showed us all the stars in the beautiful sky which we can't see at home. I found the switch which switches off the stray lights, and then my friend took out this very strong laser which can point to the stars and it's very cool la. And I learned a lot about the sky too. I saw the tiny red planet Mars, and I saw the orion's belt and found his sword, and also saw the seven sisters, and saw gemini, and saw sirius and canapos and can also roughly make out the milky way...it's just beautiful. My friends saw a shooting star but I missed it. Shooting stars are too fast for me...sigh. Wishing I can see it one day...hehe.

Let's see what else. I met Desmond the todak master and he's one of those hardcore fishermen heh...go kelong almost every weekend. It's very good if you're rich la. My friend say I can meet many kinds of people through fishing, even rich people and people doing business and with many lobang...well I met one who lives near Vivocity...how rich can you be ah living there. Haha. He's a very nice guy though, helps out us newbies a lot, though he's not from my school. He helped me unhook the fish when I catch one. Haha.

It's funny I still scream like a girl when the fish suddenly jump at me. I seriously have to control my screaming. The people there are nice though. When my hook gets sangkut they would help me out although I don't know them. Oh and Humphrey is great la. Ask him for pliers and he walk around the kelong looking for it...and found his rod instead and just stood at the side and start fishing. And I was blur just looking at him cos he didn't give me any pliers. In the end he gave me some elses la. But where was his pliers ah...inside his box! Hah. Well I should get my own pliers soon. Hehe

I like being with nice people. There's one who sit there and watch his mp3 almost the whole trip...nice because he barbeques for us. He also helped us unhook the fishes and also put the bait...makes fishing easier, then I don't have to keep pausiing to put baits...

Haha the president of the club is so cute ok...little boy cute. And quite blur too...cannot ask him anything one, must ask Humphrey cos he knows more...funny ah...I love his cuteness haha...well for the whole trip must thank Humphrey for it...the organiser of the trip is very stress I can see that. Hah and I feel so stupid for leaving my white card in the van when at the customs cos he has to run back to get it for me...haiz...

Oh and Desmond's young nephew is very cute! He is so knowledgeable...and proud too. He loves to tell us everything he knows and give us advice hehe. He wears a life jacket the whole time he's there cos I think he can't swim...haha and I told my friend I wouldn't mind getting a fisherman husband and go kelong like every month just to fish! There's no cute fisherman though which is quite sad. Then my friend told me there's that cute Desmond's nephew and we can wait for him to grow up and maybe marry him hahaha...funny joke...

Anyway I still love the kelong life. Hahaha...on the trip I couldn't really sleep on the first night cos the waves were very noisy but I was too tired on the second night to care. Oh I really love the kelong trip cos it's different from other trips. I wake up in the morning and straight away think of fishing (even this morning when I'm already off the kelong). Before I sleep at night I also think of fishing. That's why I sleep very little there. There's a lot of things to do, which is fishing...haha I want to go there again! But after my exams or something...I didn't feel like coming back to singapore and continue going to school haha. I love the kelong life...

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"You really look like your father...except for your eyes. You have Lily's eyes..."

I'm at work now and I have nothing to do...Harry Potter the movie is great...especially the battle at the end. And I love the thestrals, those reptilian invisible creatures that only Harry and Luna can see. Luna is interesting. And Sirius dying by the Avada Kedabra is much better than him dying by stupidly falling into the veil. Daniel Radcliffe is too old. Emma Watson is pretty but she can't act, and I actually like Ron but I don't like Rupert. Ooh I think the twins are much better actors. The scene of them fleeing from school is interesting but does not do them justice. And I definitely like Draco Malfoy haha because of the Draco Trilogy. Haha why am I talking about who I like...

Oh and Eun and Sham suspects that the person who was forgotten in the first original script in the movie but forced to brought back by Rowling is...Kreacher haha...But.....Kreacher somehow reminds me of Gollum...would Kreacher's part be similar to that of Gollum's near the end? Ahaha erm...I like Dobby >.<

I can't wait for Saturday! I keep thinking Snape probably want to give Harry his potions book, because he probably knew that Harry has the book ever since he saw Harry used Sectumsempra. And in the seventh book, Snape is going to help out Harry, but Harry is not going to appreciate it duh. And is RGB actually Regulus Black, Sirius's brother? Probably ah I want to know! Maybe it's another lame person like the HBP turn out to be. Before the book came out, who'd have thought Prince is the last name of a person? And I hope Ron would sacrifice himself for Harry haha cos I like sacrifices of best friends...been reading a lot of anime fanfiction.

Haa...okay I think my temp colleage beside me is bored now. Can you believe it's two people to one computer here at work...sheesh...

When things go wrong
As they sometimes will
When all the road seems all uphill
When I feel like lying down to cry
I look again and then I sigh
The worst is not happening to me
Its happening to others that I cant see
And when I open up my eyes
I cry not for me but the passers bys
My acquaintances and friends
They’re hurt much more
The fun I enjoy
That others cant toy
Hate I cannot
Love I must
This life that I have
That Allah has blessed

Alhamdulillah

Freaking bitch. I need to go shopping but the gst increased already. And I'm supposed to go Malaysia now but got a few things not settled.

Man, why is it when people get mad they just blame everyone around them. Fine I might have made a mistake and I won't repeat it but what's done can't be undone right.

That freak makes my life so difficult. We can't even close one deal. And that jeffrey...argh I don't know what to say...

And it's already Sunday, where in the world is that scanlation for Bleach??

Ok so I got an admin job from my job agency and so did my friend but she got a customer service job, and that ain't very entertaining with all the complaints that she has to go through everyday. And because of that I'm feeling a bit guilty that I got a so-called easier job than her.

Why must getting a job be so difficult? Haish...well why dwell on the problems in life. But then when I try to think of something else I feel guilty that I am not finding a way to solve the problem, but then again there's really nothing I can do about it for now.

And I'm just talking about a bunch of stuff not exactly related to each other.

Haa...I enjoyed Thursday very much though, meeting up with friends always makes our problems go away. We watched V for Vendetta at jw's place and I just love her home theatre system hehe...

Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of Fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is a vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished. However, this valorous visitation of a by-gone vexation, stands vivified and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin van-guarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. [carves V into poster on wall] ~V for Vendetta

"OFFICIAL 6 DIGIT EARNER" ~ somebody's msn nick

And he's only 23 years old. I suppose I should just ask him and learn some tips from him but but but do you know how busy he is and do you know how I don't want to be that busy and can you even imagine earning that much ok nevermind.

Yeah! Exams over on Thurs! Time to get a job soon...Ven asked me to teach at certain schools with her since we live so near each other...she's an interesting person you know...I've never really talked to her but since the first day of exam (090507), I wasn't sure how to get to expo, so we met at the bus stop to go together and we've been meeting at the bus stop ever since...and in only like 3 days I feel like I know a loT about her. She's a very sincere friend, and even told me that I have to be more sincere as a friend too, by dropping all barriers and just being myself...but how to do that...after that mlm incident...actually I did learn a lot from nti...but in the end, after struggling for so long, I decided to quit ...do you know how much I feel like a failure after that...But that's a whole different story which hurts to tell...And anyway, secondly, I've never had a proper job before, just because I was stopped by that mlm...and then there's Mr Zen...he keeps appearing in my dreams and I can only wonder why...sigh...

You know, I somehow dread the holidays...haa...and during the hols, i feel i should get rushi's notes to start studying for next...yeah haha let's hope i can walk the walk...gah...

And Sham is at San Francisco! The furthest I'd go this holidays is malaysia haha...Perhaps with sy and the others yeah yeah yeah...

:) Yifang probably don't remember, but she did sent me that picture of Daisuke up there and I made it into a skin yeah! I took a whole year to make this skin and I only completed it because I didn't feel like studying.

What else do I do when I don't feel like studying? Oh I go around and look for spiderman comic books in the library and I have to admit spiderman is my favourite cartoon superhero. I really love his funny remarks during his battles...they are just so very lovable. And I just love his spider sense... Why they didn't they show any of his spider sense in the third movie?? Oh but the third spidey movie is still great anyway hehe...Next up is the Pirates movie yeah!

Ok let's try posting a youtube video hmmm... Ok I got it..."This song is based on a true story from the Hadith. The singer/talker in the story is an old lady talking to Prophet Muhammad (pbuh), but she does not know that he is the prophet. When she learns, she embraces Islam."

Lyrics can be found here: http://www.wharnsby.com/Lyrics/archives/000195.html

I just love Dawud Warnsby Ali's voice, so I thought I'd share...And this song keeps playing in my head while I'm doing my final exams.....I love Rasulallah s.a.w..

April Fools Day! Fred and George Weasley's birthday today! Haha...I can't wait for the movie and also HP and the Deathly Hallows!

Shafiq! I'm funny meh? Haha...And why can't you just organize your own gathering since you want it so much..Maybe in June or something...Now got exams...which I didn't do very well for the Prelims...

Gah...I know I really need First Class Honors...aim for the moon, fall on the stars...something like that...And Nazism is always asking me about updating my blog...nah I update ok:

A weird conversation I had today...

Wei Kian says (6:13 PM):
but well, is ur elder sister in a position to intervene

Wei Kian says (6:13 PM):
or is she like living elsewhere

Wei Kian says (6:13 PM):
coz she's married

*muni* says (6:14 PM):
nah she's here, shes not married, just engaged

*muni* says (6:14 PM):
i guess i can get her to help

Wei Kian says (6:14 PM):
O_O

Wei Kian says (6:14 PM):
got diff?>

Wei Kian says (6:15 PM):
haha ok i didn't noe sorry

Wei Kian says (6:15 PM):
well i guess u can

Wei Kian says (6:15 PM):
if she's open to helping u

*muni* says (6:15 PM):
married is can sleep in the same bed with husband but engaged cannot haha

Wei Kian says (6:16 PM):
what the lol

Wei Kian says (6:16 PM):
i didn't mean it THAT way lah haiyo hahaa

*muni* says (6:16 PM):
u asked wat!

*muni* says (6:16 PM):
thats the most obvious answer hehe

ROFL...Yapyap my sister is getting married in 2009...I think...And she's only two years older than me...I'm happy for her...

Ooh ya my friend gave me a Tsubasa Chronicles manga volume 2 for my birthday...My first manga ever! The best is till Bleach though. (No I don't watch Naruto...no time and not as fun as Bleach.) And who's the coolest villian ever? Ex-Captain Aizen!

But the most kawaii is still Hitsugaya! And the most dumb girl who should really concentrate on her studies is Me! Seriously, I can't repeat the same costly mistake I did last year. So what am I doing online??

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"Good morning Espada. We've been attacked by the enemy. First though, I suppose we should...warm up some tea." ~ Ex-Captain Aizen

Whee...I deleted some of those rubbish posts in my guestbook...haha...don't know what's the point of having the guestbook but nevermind...

And I updated my Pentium3! My computer is so much faster now and I'm feeling so much happier...hehe...also because the camp I organized went well in the end...happy happy happy :)))

Slept the whole day today since I hardly slept during the camp...woke up in the wee hours of the morning to see my little sister laughing over the phone with her boyfriend...

Anyway, exams are coming! I have to go full steam ahead...My prelims start on 28th feb and I need to focus on nothing else but that...sigh...and it doesn't feel like exam period at all...how how how...

Oh my friend introduced me to a series called One Litre of Tears...a very poignant and inspirational story...which I haven't got the time to watch but I will once I can...

And there's 23 days left to a very important day...is it 23 days or maybe I lost count...haha...

Happy happy happy

"but ya *pat* ur a gd fren i really hope the best for"

Gosh, sometimes I feel so down, so useless, so unwanted...and then someone suddenly throws me that kind of sentence and my spirits soar...

And now for those who keep telling me to update: I updated! Now please don't check this blog till 2008...oh and Happy 2007 everybody! May this year be the year of peace!

It's so uplifting to talk to cute guys :DDD

Gah...I don't know why I'm suddenly posting again...though I have no idea what to talk about...and it'll just be another passing phase I think...hopefully less people read this now...and I think my english and vocab has gotten a lot worse...gah...

Anyway, some people still don't know I'm going SIM...I got lousy results...that sucks...but no point crying over spilt milk...anyway, I've changed! I know why I have to work hard now...mostly for my parents...my friends say SIM will be very slack, but I went to the talk at SIM on the 19th they stressed on how tough and packed the studying will be...okay whatever...whats the value of a degree anyway, when we need a lot more than that...

Always begin with the end in mind!

I was excited one day, and down again the next. How fast the excitement died down. How fast my emotions can change.

Everyone wants success, but not everyone is prepared to pay the price for success.

Gah, my sisters hate me...I should stop irritating them...

ARE YOU A CARROT, AN EGG, OR A COFFEE BEAN?
by Mary Sullivan - used with her expressed permission.

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as if as soon as one problem was solved a new one arose. Her mother took her to the kitchen.

The mother filled three pots with water.

In the first, she placed carrots.
In the second she placed eggs.
And the last she placed ground coffee beans.

She let them sit and boil without saying a word. About twenty minutes later, she turned off the burners.

She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.

Turning to her daughter, she said, "Tell me what you see."

"Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied. (You known the tone of voice.)

She brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did, and noted that they felt soft.

She then asked her to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard-boiled egg inside.

Finally, she asked her to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma.

The daughter then asked, "So, what's the point, mother?" (Remember the tone of voice.)

Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity - boiling water - but each reacted differently.

The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.

The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid center. But, after sitting through the boiling water, its insides had become hardened.

The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water...they had changed the water.

"Which are you?" she asked her daughter. "When adversity knocks on your
door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot , an egg, or a coffee bean?"

Think of this: Which am I?

Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity, do I wilt
and become soft and lose my strength?

Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat?

Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial
hardship, or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my outer shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and a hardened heart?

Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water - the very circumstances that bring the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor of the bean. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you instead of letting it change you.

When the hours are the darkest and trials are their greatest do you elevate to another level?

How do you handle Adversity?

ARE YOU A CARROT, AN EGG, OR A COFFEE BEAN?

How do people shop for so long? I'm so not cut out for shopping man...dog-tired I am...from Orchard, Bugis, then to East Coast Beach with Bell...

Oh then on our way to Parkway, guess who we saw? Derek! (Who was on his way to soccer at the beach...hehe.) We asked him to take a picture with us and he refused! Big surprise there. But then that's what makes him so cute.

Anyway, I'm seeing this repeat of history from exactly two years ago, where my blog is pimpled with depressing words and friends start to fill up my guestbook with sweet words of encouragement...

Well I don't deserve to enjoy myself after being so lazy...I'm a smart girl and could have done much better in my As...

But then its over. Just like that.

‘I’m bored,’ said Sirius. ‘wish it was full moon.’

‘You might,’ said Lupin darkly from behind his book. ‘We’ve still got Transfiguration, if you’re bored you could test me. Here…’ and he held out his book.

But Sirius snorted. ‘I don’t need to look at that rubbish, I know it all.’ ~OotP

Alas, I'm not Sirius nor a super-genius like my other friends...so I shall have to, yap, study.

Oh how am I supposed to wait till the 28th to watch GoF???

And that Eric can be such an arsehole . Why does he even bother to ask me why I don't study with him? Which I did on Saturday...gah...I must learn to say no when someone ask me out, to study, to eat or to whatever...

Oh erm...I was just kidding about the slap ^_^

Hate. Cambridge. Dig. Hole. Bury. Me.

Gah...do you know...I have this communication problem...with my friends, my family, with everybody...I can't speak to anyone so I keep to myself and get depressed...

Maybe because one of my greatest fear is of embarrassing myself...in the things I do, the stuff I say...and I had been having nightmares about them too...

One nightmare in which I'm walking in this house where I see the faces of every person I know and all have them have grown to become a successful person and I'm still a nobody, just a disappointment, an embarrassment of this generation of my family...

Sigh...I'm swimming in this gloomy sea of depression and hopelessness which I don't know when I'm getting out of...I'm so bloody pathetic somebody please slap me.

Some quotes from the class which give me a smile:

"Listen attention!"
~Joanne who fused 'listen to the teacher' & 'pay attention' together

"No wonder I got it correct!"
~Maths class when Ms Lam told us one of the answers to the tutorial is wrong

"Cher, I got one question for you: Huh?"
~Asyraf, Maths class, after Ms Lam read a particularly long question, with the reply of a very quiet class

"I'm trying to concentrate too!"
~Adam, GP class, when everyone's quietly doing comprehension & he suddenly read out a sentence from the passage & Ms Wee told him that the class is trying to concentrate

"Cher, each person has two hands!"
~Maths class, when doing a probability question involving the number of ways to shake hands with 8 people.

"Ask the wall, ask the wall!"
~Maths class, when Ms Lam asked Baba a question & he pointed beside him to Shafiq & said, "Ask Shafiq, ask Shafiq!" & Shafiq pointed beside him to Asyraf & said, "Ask Asyraf, ask Asyraf!" & Asyraf pointed beside him to the wall & said, "Ask the wall, ask the wall!"

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And some quotes I'll re-post because it's cute:

"What's manuscript?" ~Shafiq
"It means Manchester United script." ~Adam
(GP lesson)

"I'm going to take off my shoe and throw it at this guy..."
~Shafiq, about Dexter.

"You know, Osama shouldn't kill all those people in the two towers...he should kill this guy instead."
~Shafiq, about Dexter.

"If those people had died, that's it lah. I would seriously run away lah."
~Alvin, when ice-skating with some of my classmates & he made Bernice bump into a group of people.

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And then there's today's Maths class when half-way through a question, all the guys whipped out their handphones and cameras asking Ms Lam to pose so they can take a picture of her, & Ms Lam just stood there covering her face with a paper & in exasperation, shouted, "Liling!" for no reason.

Sigh...I'm going to miss the class.

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And these are the quotes from my rock climbing teachers to motivate myself:

"Concentrate on the process, don't think of the outcome." ~Ms Goh

"Keep going, you're reaching the finishing line!" ~Ms Lim

Bad results bad results bad results...when will I ever learn to discipline myself to study? I so totally don't deserve to watch Corpse Bride on Wednesday...

A friend sent me a picture, my fingers got itchy and I started twidling with the html in the template and VoilA! I made it all by myself, yes I did, my very first skin! GOsh, the stress...argh...the html was driving me nuts and I sat in front of the computer for 12 whole hours straight! Yes, exageration as always...but look at the end product and man the feeling is good! I now officially claim myself as the master of html! Who wants me to design their blogs for them raise your hands!

Ok, kidding, I'm only an amatuer...oh sigh...

Alrighty then, Kaimisuki has gone for a total makeover and I do hope someone comes along to see it...hehe...but will this gal continue blogging? We'll see...and I can't decide about the tagboard either...but I don't care...right now...all I want...is my Zzzs...

Depression...gah...have anybody seen Eric lately? He's either in the school library studying or with Ms Lam asking about numerical methods or something like that...well, ya I'm exagerating...but can somebody please tell me how a slacker can all of a sudden be vEry motivated to study?

I myself am struggling trying to keep up...sigh...went to the beach to study with Bell who fell asleep in the cool wind...and I was looking at the horizon and wondering...how did they figure out that the world is not flat?

Anyway, how just how am I suppose to study when kak bought maryam a 500-pieces jigsaw puzzle for her birthday on Wednesday! And it's still not complete yet. There's two kittens, a black one with orange stripes and a totally white one in a totally pink background of pink cotton wool and pink strings and pink everything! And ya, they just leave the kittens sitting right there in front of my TV, with sweet half-done heads and cute pink noses looking at me with adorable eyes as if begging me to fix them whole...

So that's what I've been doing these days. I also spend time sitting in front of the computer beside my sister, longing to play what she's playing (neopets duh)...Well, she's a billionaire already lah! In neopoints of course...

Other than that...I've been admiring my 5 beautiful sunflower plants I planted from seeds. The flowers will bloom straight after my As end, or so the words on the packet imply...end of As...-dreamy look-...oh, then there's Rainbow, my gorgeous fighting fish (named by my little sister) who accompanies me at night while I study...

Hah...right...I end up reading HP&HBP instead. Heh...I've re-read it once already. Aint Snape just so cool in there...(I'm very certain that Dumbledore forced him to do it in the end). But then...I re-read HP&PoA and realise what a jerk he is...

I really want to read Lymond but I have to admit the vocabulary is a bit intimidating, as cool as he can be...sigh...

I saw Sham's list of things to do after As...wow...The only thing I look forward to is HP&GoF and that Narnia Chronicles movie...sigh...end of As ---regret?humiliation?---

Oh, wow, another entree in this long-dead blog? Ok ok, I miss my Kaimisuki a lot alright. One long post as an update for my rg friends and then another long break before the next update...haha...

Bored?
Mr Bombastick (go to animation and watch those episodes :))
The End of the World
Pie
Illama Song

But please remember to study because...if there's a will, there's a way. And if there's no will, there's nO way...

That's more a reminder for myself...

I do not whine about people not signing my guestbook. Don't sign lah, for all I care.

Anyway, I got in 3rd place...Am I good, or am I good?

Still got another competition this Saturday...that means Maybelle and I can study on Sunday...finally...

Gosh...Can you believe there's only 12 days of the holidays left...how am I suppose to study huh? And I'm so bloody tired...I think my muscles are going to break apart soon...

And that's an uber cool animation there.

I know a lot of people read my blog but I got no time to update often because of the upcoming common tests...and those who are reading this should bloody well know that they should be offline studying so get off the computer right now!

But I'm still going out anyway...watched Creep last Thursday with a group of people and nice sweet Adam bought us all popcorn to share (though I took most of the popcorn but that doesn't matter much). And also I bought Yi Fang a $1.50 birthday present... compared to the balloons she gave me, I am so lousy at getting presents for people...Speaking of which I forgot somebody's birthday which falls on the 9th of April...HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JW! I'll pop by your blog after...erm...soon...

Oh, and that Creep show was not a ghost story at all but a horror story with gory details about the Creep cutting and digging out a dead person's lungs and feeding it to the rats. I felt like puking lah especially with all that popcorn in my stomach... Yet I kind of cried during the show...the Creep just have this sad life and he didn't know or understand anything about us humans. But it was still a waste of money...gah...

Had heats today and I can't believe it's almost the last week of April already...and my freaking ankle still haven't heal yet. It hurt a little when I tried running before the race and tried to ignore it...the pain didn't come during the 100m sprint but after the sprint there was a sudden stabbing pain which makes me want to cut off my ankle and just get a new one... But I have to appreciate what I have...sighsighsigh... Anyway, I got into semi-finals but can I really go much further if I'm not running to the best of my ability? This sucks lah. I really miss those moments when I rush past the finishing line with people cheering for me...watching her cry after the 1x4m race made me feel like crying with disappointment that I can't run for my class this year...but I still have other events I haven't gone for so I shall contain my disappointment as yet.

I want Gundam Seed Destiny! I still haven't ordered HBP! And I want dark chocolate!

Oh, must remind myself to go for health screening with Ashley on 2nd May...

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"So...did you put the cucumber into the donut yesterday?" ~Eric

5th place in the competition...not bad huh? I wish I could have done better though. There's still another 2 more competitions in June before I am done climbing for good, unless there's intra-college competition. Ah...another thing to look forward too...not. I still want to rest my ankle so that it's fully healed before I run for the Sport's Day heats, which is on the last week of April...Heal, ankle, heal!

Oh yeah, there was this question that was asked to one of our climbers before one of the competitions, "Do you believe in resting on the day before the competition or do you believe in sexual activities to arouse yourself?" ...or something like that lah... and the reply was, "No, no, I don't believe in such things. I sex daily."

...

You can just roll your eyes at him, you know...

Anyway, I've been wanting to read Queens Play but I've got no time! Sigh...but once I start, it's really hard to stop.

Why oh why must everyone be studying so hard these days? It's really irritating when I see slackers or should I say ex-slackers studying...

And there's still the month of July when HBP will be released. I can't wait...I haven't ordered yet though, so must do it soon...when I got time to go out...

You know, the day Ms Rukhaidah left us to go to Australia is quite sad...though I didn't feel it then, I suddenly feel it now...gosh, my reaction time is quite slow huh...love the part when she showed us the star in the apple...I told Ber I didn't cry then and she was like asking me why was I such a cold-hearted person...funny question really...

Ok, I've been online so long and yet I've not done what I intended to do...sigh...

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"It's better to look ahead and prepare than to look back and regret."

Love Lymond. I was reading Queen's Play during the holidays...only read halfway though. Damn touching...he's poisoned and still wanted to help the queen. Everyone's worried about him but himself...isn't he just the perfect person everyone including me fall for? And I want to continue reading but must start on my work already...sigh.

At least I wasn't the only one who slacked during the hols. Though I shouldn't be thinking of it that way...Term 2 already...argh...how did he get straight As huh???

I still got competition this Friday, which I shouldn't have joined because of my ankle...I don't feel like climbing much these days...'cause of Daniel and his stupid idea that we shouldn't bother training since we are not climbing for the national competition which is in September, and that time it'll be our Prelims. Why did they push the nationals so far back...stupid lah...we had been winning the comp for so many years ...not fair that TPJC can't enter and win again...though I don't really mind not entering...feeling so tired these days...people got trouble not falling asleep, and I got trouble waking up. Sigh...

Wish I can slack lah...we ended early today 'cause we have no more malay lessons since we got our results already, so the girls went out to eat but Renny tagged along to chase after who else but that girl everyone knows he likes...damn irritating...making silly lame jokes and talking crap, those kind of crap where I keep telling him to shut up and he just keep repeating "Huh?". And usually when I say shut up, the other person will say something else, but not he. He just keep repeating the same irritating word...I wanted to slap his face lah...seriously...but still it was fun when he was aiming at others, namely Liling...haha...I guess he's quite cute...

But now I'm home and I've got work to do...

And I want chocolate...

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"Put 'eat chocolate' at the top of your list of things to do today. That way, at least you'll get one thing done."

My ankle is still swollen and I'm still walking all over Singapore...when will my ankle ever heal...well, actually I just went to Suntec (Career Fair) then to Shafia's place (to get RG Malay Drama tickets) then to RG itself for the drama...quite an eventful Saturday... and on Friday I saw my crush and he talked to me! He was collecting his As results and he saw my bandaged ankle and he talked to me! Gosh, I miss talking to him...and he got straight As too...he must become my idol so I can aim for straight As...yeah!

I sprained my ankle when I fell from rock climbing, which swelled to a disgusting size only 6 hours later at 1am, went to the doctor then and he said it might be a fracture which scared the hell out of me, 'cause competitions are coming up, but alhamdulillah it wasn't, after the x-ray was done. But it hurts when I have to limp all the way to Tampines Mall the next day to catch Howl's Moving Castle (such a sweet show), being left behind by my friends once or twice, trying to catch up and feeling irritated...as if I'm a burden to them...why do I have to sprain my ankle the day before the movie comes out?

And I really don't feel like doing any studying with an ankle like this. Eric was in the library handing out blank pieces of paper and telling people to prepare their time-table for A-levels and I happily told him I already made them. Of course, just because I already did my time-table doesn't mean I'm following it right? Man, this sucks...I hope I don't regret next year.

Oh, did you know that Constantine had a twin, but he strangled his twin with his umbilical cord when they were still in his mother's womb? Or so his dad told him...totally morbid...

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"Her soul would go straight to Hell, where she'd be ripped into bloody chunks over and over in screaming brutal agony for all eternity." ~Constantine about Isabel

I asked my sister what to do when you love a guy but the guy does not love you back, and my sis said, "Just believe that he's gay."
That got a laugh out of me.

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You have to be egoistic, otherwise you'll kill yourself. -Ber

Heh...see that colourful blinking banner at the side there saying "TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!"? See it? See the date up there at the top? See it? Hahaha...let's sing together! Happy birthday to me! Yeah...Oh it's such a b-e-a-utiful day!

And oh so beautiful Yifang gave me 18 small balloons as part of my birthday present, which I left all around the floor of my room yesterday. When I woke up this morning, I thought that my hamster was running around my room, but then realised they are just balloons...then later I went online to play games and felt something rub against my feet and again I thought it's my hamster, but again they are just the balloons...I miss my hamster so much...sigh...I can only find 15 of my balloons eh, and one of them is deflated...wonder where the other three went...

Hmm...I'm going airport Swensens, then go jalan-jalan with family later...might have some doa selamat also, since my extended family is going...quite excited but it's kind of weird going out with them...don't really feel like talking to them...why why why I do not know...should try to have fun anyway...

Hmph, tomorrow right...tomorrow my countdown banner will reset itself to 365 days...And then 365 days later, I'll be another year older, and another year of my life would have gone. You know, living a life is not easy at all...and yet time flies, we still experience things, good and bad, and then the future becomes the present, and that...that is life...funny huh? I just find it funny...oh well...rubbishity stuff...dumdeedum...and I shall try to write more in my blog this year...quite boring right...see my mood lah...dumdeedum...happy happy happy birthday to me...and Merry Christmas to all and to all a Happy New Year!

Darn I wish it's Christmas. Oh well. Xin nian kuai le and gong xi fa cai everyone!

Yeah! I got my first birthday present of the year...love it!

I'm still letting my life rot, if this blog rots, it means I'm rotting...just in case anybody's wondering...though I doubt anybody is.

Going to school is totally different from home.

School there's friends, and I'm usually too busy with rock climbing to worry about anything else, since there's going to be one competition every month till June or July. So in school I'm either dreading rock climbing or too tired from rock climbing.

Then at home I fight with my conscience which keeps telling me to do tutorials. And it's always a miracle when I actually do it. You know, I had been failing everything in the 2nd semester last year, and managed to pull through for promos. And now, I still have no motivation to do my work, I hate doing my work and I totally despise tests and examinations. But stating that down doesn't help much does it?

That's why my life is rotting.

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a little faith is all you need

It's mid-december, I'm still playing neopets, Joanne is reminding me to do my work, and I'm still ignoring her. Yeah.

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My pokemon cards bring the nerds to the yard
And they're like "You wanna trade cards?"
Damn right I wanna trade cards
You can have two but not my charizard

I know you want it,
the thing that makes them,
what the nerds go crazy for.
They lose their hp,
the way I attack,
I think its fireblast time

la la-la la la,
warm it up.
la la-la la la,
the nerds are waiting

I can see you want it,
you want me to teach the
techniques that freak these nerds,
it can be bought,
for a charizard,
watch if your smart,

Once you get in a battle,
everyone will look this way-so,
you must maintain your charmander,
same time maintain your wailord,
just get the perfect blend,
plus what you have within,
then next they're eyes are squint,
then they have picked up your sweet scent...

(Yeah, yeah, I know. I seriously need to grow up.)

My hamster died the other day, and I didn't cry or even think about it then, but now I realise how quiet my late-night studying has been nowadays (that is, while I'm studying for my religious class exam). There's no more "Goo goo ga ga," or "Whoshe cute wittle hamshter?" or tickling of the hamster and watching her run around me as I sit on the floor with my book on my lap...

My sister ain't going to buy another hamster because it's too much work...there's too much work for me too, of course, but I'm still crushed...who can I turn to at night now (while I'm staying up studying till 4a.m.)? Who can I disturb anytime I want now? Sigh...I miss her so much...here's to you, my furry little friend.

Cheesepiecheesepiecheesepiecheesepiecheesepie...it's a dirty word...oh nevermind...I'll tell you when you reach Singapore, jw.

Anyway, I'm back from Genting. We went together with my aunt's husband's family for the first time...and I fell for my aunt's husband's brother...he's quite cute...and quite young too. Sigh...I have to stop falling for guys...I always do, and then I'll get so shy and quite...afraid of embarrassing myself...sigh...

My sister is getting so close to this guy and soon she might have a boyfriend and I just know that I'll be the last one to marry in this family man...

Why am I talking about this...when it's already first of December and I should start on my work...Can you believe it's first of December already?

...

"It's probably just Draco," Ron said, then clamped his mouth shut. What on earth had possessed him to speak?
"I know what Draco Malfoy looks like," said Mortenson, aggrieved. "I know because he came by the office today."
Voldemort looked almost interested. "Did he?" he asked.
"He did. And- he brought his girlfriend with her."
Rhysenn arched an eyebrow. "He has a girlfriend?"
I can't believe this, Ron thought. I've been kidnapped by the forces of evil, dragged hundreds of miles to a remote mountain fortress, I'm surrounded by demons and vampires, and everyone is still discussing bloody Draco Malfoy's bloody sex life. There is no justice.
~Draco Veritas

Say "Cheese pie" 5 times out loud and very fast. Just keep repeating it and you'll get it. Damn lame actually...

And yeah! I'm going Genting again! Wow! I've gone there every year! I can't wait to go AGAIN! And I'll be there for 3 days...how FUN.

I haven't even packed my bag...it's 7a.m. now and we're leaving at 9a.m. and I still haven't packed my bag...just keep procrastinating, Munirah, and next year will be hell for you.

Oh yar, Eli and Sham, I'm sure we can go out around Cristmas...oh what a busy life I live...not.

This place is so stagnant I'm starting to breed mosquitoes again. I've been playing Neopets only so don't really have time for my blog...do you know how slow the Wheel of Monotony is spinning? Argh...So anyway, for the sake of updates...:

I'm going KL batu caves next week for 7 days with the rock climbing team to rock climb natural rocks. It's sure going to be fun. But of course, we need to train first so that we got the endurance to climb the routes there. But then we are leaving on Monday night, which is the second day of Hari Raya and I'm going to miss it! Oh what a thing to sacrifice just for rock climbing...money...sobsobsob...I want green packets...sobsobsob...

{Oh great...too many people speaking with me via msn...I'm so afraid they might ask me to go out with them...I really want to but there's no time!

That's the problem whenever I go online...I'll chitchat and chatchit until I can't finish updating my blog.

But I'll try harder this time.}

So...I got promoted yap. They moderated my Chemistry, increasing my mark by 10, so I failed Biology but passed Chem. I'm going to seriously study hard in December, man. If I don't I'll just die for As.

{And I was right! She did ask me to go out with her...sigh...so sad I might have to refuse...and why do I have to ask about Promos? All of them did very well but me lah.}

But why bother about studies that now when it's still November? Hah...we had class outing last Monday and we went ice-skating! (I really miss the 202 righties ice-skating trips...) And I don't know why but the only prominent things I remember from that Monday were the falling down part and the getting wet part and the freezing part. Haha...but it was still fun...we had speed skating with Alvin who caused Bernice to knock into a group of people once and he said, "If those people had died, that's it lah. I would seriously run away lah." Then we had Renny falling over and over again but he's quite a fast learner since it was he's first time ice-skating. And we also had Joanne who kept complaining, "There's so many people!"...hehe...but Sigh...it's so sad that we have to go off once we got the hang of ice-skating...heh...

My class is so fun. There's this 'funny', 'weird' guy in my class, Dexter, who keeps doing weird things in class and is so irritating that he always gets comments like, "I'm going to take off my shoe and throw it at this guy..." and "You know, Osama shouldn't kill all those people in the two towers...he should kill this guy instead." Actually only Shafiq said that...he can be mean sometimes, but I bet Dexter is so blur he don't know what Shafiq is talking about...

We're going out again on Wednesday to see Alvin and also Bell off at the airport. It's so sad that Alvin has to go away to Australia. He's the only guy in class nice enough to make friends with Dexter. The other guys are all so childish they don't bother lah.

And oh I made it to become an OGL yeah! I don't really know what's so exciting about it but it's going to be fun still I bet. Gosh, I must really study hard and not get too busy that I fail all my tests on the first week of January next year. Time just keeps flying. I think if I can chose a supernatural power, I would chose to stop time. That would be so great.

..

‘Oh, stop quoting and give me something to shoot’
‘Suit yourself,’ sighed Foaly, selecting what looked like a finger from the rack.
‘What’s that?’
‘It’s a finger. What does it look like?’
‘A finger,’ admitted Root.
‘Yes, but not any ordinary finger.’ He glanced around to make sure that no one else was watching. ‘The tip contains a pressurized dart. One shot only. You tap the knuckle with your thumb and someone goes sleepy-bye.’
‘Why haven’t I seen this before?’
‘It’s a covert kinda thing…’
‘And?’ said Root suspiciously.
‘Well, there have been accidents…’
‘Tell me, Foaly.’
‘Our agents keep forgetting they have it on.’
‘Meaning they shoot themselves.’
Foaly nodded miserably. ‘One of our best sprites was picking his nose at the time. Three days on the critical list.’
~Artemis Fowl

Ok, fine, I don't hate it. I must look at things positively and learn from my mistakes. What does it matter if I don't follow my 2004 new year's resolutions, right?

..

‘Are we good to go?’ roared Root into his mike, as though it wasn’t whisper-sensitive.
‘No need to shout Commander. These headsets could pick up a spider scratching in Madagascar.’
‘And is there a spider scratching in Madagascar?’
‘Well…I don’t really know. They can’t really–’
‘Well, stop changing the subject, Foaly, and answer the question!’

~Artemis Fowl

i totatally hate this. i totally hate this. i totally hate this. i want to act confident. i am confident, i am. but am i really? i just do not want to think about it. lucky some people get to go overseas. don't need to study in jc. stupid stressful life. i hate this. complacent. depression. stupidity. regret. idioticness...is there such a word? y can't i just...just...just...shut off my mind somehow...sigh...forget it. i just totally hate this. it's my own fault anyway. if i got retained, then i deserve it. i deserve to get retained. deserve to be embarrassed when the new j1s come in. deserve to lose all the nice friends i made this year. deserve to die. should i post this or just throw it away? i shall

My exams only end on the coming Wednesday and here I am...and I even managed to finally read Artemis Fowl, which is an irony, since I've been avoiding that book since the beginning of the year because of my heavy workload. Anyway, that book is great! I can't wait to read the next one! It's so magical and so cool too...bad guys give me tingles all over...Hehe...Do you remember these quotes:

The dwarf swallowed dryly. Wasn’t it typical of the Dwarf Brotherhood? What do dwarfs hate? Fire. Who are the only creatures with the ability to conjure up fireballs? Goblins. So who did the dwarfs have to pick a fight with? What a real no-brainer.

and

[When Mulch, the dwarf, who was sneaking around in the house, was talking to Foaly, the centaur, who was in the watchtower.]
The hardware in Mulch’s eye flickered and sparked.
‘Oww!’
‘Sorry. Small charge.’
‘You could have warned me.’
‘I’ll give you a big kiss later, you baby. I thought dwarfs were tough.’
‘We are tough. I’ll show you just how tough when I get back.’
Root’s voice interrupted the posturing. ‘You won’t be showing anyone anything, convict, except perhaps where the toilet is in your cell.”

Dumdeedum...I'm feeling so very bored...I don't want to study...sigh...stupid PW...why must it be so troublesome...sigh...can't stand school...want to stay at home...but I can't stand home either...want to be in school...but school...got some friendship problems...problems with stress...problems with imaginary boyfriends...then go back home...I got problem with wanting to sleep sleep and sleep...when I wake up, I'll get a headache...don't know why...so I'll continue sleeping and sleeping and sleeping...I want to study...want to get 3 As...want to fullfill my parent's dreams...right...sigh...

Have anybody seen this site: www.jcguide.org ? It's damn funny lah...what it said about srjc is so true...and what it said about tpjc's short skirt is...also quite true...heh...oh man, my sis need to use the comp...sigh...exams suck.

Yeah! Upgraded my computer to Windows XP! And I can borrow the Lymond Chronicles from Shamiah after Pui Man! I really thought it was going to be a long list of people borrowing from her. Ah...there's so much to do after Promos is over...not to mention my Perdaus (religious class) exams...

But for now, I promise to start studying for my 'A's on 1st January 2005. That's what the book I'm a Genius and so are you says...studying starts from the very first moment you enter the school...or something like that. I always find these kind of books on the last few weeks before my exams, which is really inconvenient since none of these books give tips on last-minute studying. Sigh...I still fear that I might get retain...trying to accept the fact now...gosh life is totally great isn't it.

..

It’s definitely not convenient for a place like this to be so icy cold! A fireplace would be of advantage. But it could possibly turn out to be a problem if somebody called by Floo.

On the other hand…

*dirty smirk*

The looks on their faces…. might be entertaining.

~ Lucius at the Loo by Silver

Comparison of Acid Strenthgs
With metal: all (carboxylic acid, phenols, arenes, alcohols) react to produce hydrogen gas
With hydroxide: only carboxylic acid and phenols react to produce salt and water
With carbonate: only carboxylic acid reacts to produce carbon dioxide gas

..

' The classroom door banged open with a crash, and Harry Potter half-fell into the room. He was staring-eyed, and his robes were smeared with what looked like luminous yellow paint. He glared at Flitwick. "SO WHAT IF I'M LATE?" he bellowed. "WHAT RIGHT HAVE ANY OF YOU TO JUDGE ME?" ' -A Lot To Be Upset About

I will never ever mess up my room ever again because I always have to spend the whole of Sunday (or any public holiday) to clean it up.
I will, from now on, leave things exactly the way I found them or even better.
I will also ensure I wash my dirty laundry every Saturday morning instead of throwing it all over my room.

And I'm feeling irritated, annoyed, angry and frustrated again...because everyone start studying already and I haven't...I know it's only one month away but I just can't do it...

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Bill: [dying] How do I look?
The Bride: You look ready.

~Kill Bill II

I think the aliens from Aliens VS Predators are quite cute. Sure they are disgusting and all but they are big and strong and have sharp teeth and acid blood...that's pretty cool too...I don't know...I just like their sharp teeth...and in a way that's cute...and they are just doing what their instincts tell them to do, which is to feed...although that involves killing...and it's not their fault if they accidentally come to earth from one of the earth's space ship (in Aliens) and start killing the human beings, 'cause in truth, humans are not angels, but are predators too, killing animals till they are extinct...I think we all deserve it if aliens come down and rip us apart right...

Oh and I see The Princess Diaries II movie is out! But it's not showing in Singapore yet...is it? I want to watch...it sounds really funny you know...how how how...

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"Hallo, mirror," he (Draco) purred. "How do I look?"
"You look fabulous," the mirror gushed. "There isn't a man, woman, or talking portrait in this castle who wouldn't get down on their knees and thank Merlin for the opportunity to lick chocolate sauce off your incomparable instep."
Okay, maybe it wasn't biased.
"And my hair?" Draco demanded.
"It is a glorious golden nimbus that frames your angelic face and moonlight eyes like a halo."
Draco squinted suspiciously. "You don't think I'm pointy?"
"Not at all. You're chiseled."
"Or pale?" Draco set his jaw. "Tell me the truth, I can take it."
"Well," the mirror hedged. "Maybe a little on the pasty side -"
'You lying piece of tin!" Draco shouted, seized his tortoiseshell hairbrush from the nearby nightstand, and hurled it at the mirror.

- A Lot To Be Upset About

Aww...you guys are so sweet...thanks! The interview with Salman was kind of scraped off because it was kind of too late by then, but he already did the interview (email interview), although we can't use that interview. He said it's ok because he enjoyed doing the interview anyway...'enjoyed'...right...

Actually things are going quite well. My soccer team got in 4th in Soccer Open (Girls)! I got to watch Aliens VS Predators with Swee Ying and it's quite a cool show! I also got to enter a bithalon or something, organised by NIE, taking place on 5th September...I have to run 5km...which will be quite fun...I hope...

Yet there are still a couple of things I'm annoyed at. Like how people speak CHINESE RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY FACE AND DURING DINNER AT THE SAME FREAKING TABLE. I thought telling them once would be enough, but I had to tell them twice, then thrice, and then I might as well record myself and play the same simple request over and over again. Where's the RESPECT?

And how in the world does Kevyn manage to become the top three for his promos last year, and also the top for Physics? I mean, he is one of the best in rock climbing, he has a girl friend, and he also has to be smart? He doesn't even look like a mugger...he looks quite attractive really...how can such a perfect person exist...like what Marcus said: he probably never sleeps. He mugs in the morning, rock climb in the afternoon, then goes out with his girlfriend at night.

Is there a chance I can be like him? ........... i'm trying to be hopeful here.

And my computer is being irritating again...

..

A scene at GP class:
Shafiq: What's manuscript?
Adam: It means Manchester United script.

Hot cross buns
Hot cross buns
One a penny
two a penny
Hot cross buns

(Background: One a penny! One a penny! One a penny!)

Hot cross buns
Hot cross buns
One a penny
two a penny
Hot cross buns

(Background: Hot cross hot cross hot cross hot cross hot cross hot cross)

I feel like killing myself again. I know life is not all about studies and everything, but I can't help it if everyone around me is so smart while I'm so stupid. I hate this. I totally hate this. You are such a loser, Munirah.

Dumdeedum...I'm slacking again. Asyley already started studying for her promos...diediedie...and I want to watch the Moscow Circus...diediedie...and too many people know about my crush...diediedie...let's not mention him anymore, kay...

yeah...diediedie...

I'm very sad because my parents were surprised that I didn't get 3 As for my CT. I'm also sad because my bio teacher told my mum during the meet the parents session that I'm very slow during my practical, so I should learn to cook in the kitchen so I'll keep to my timing. I'm also sad because I really want to go for the OCIP and also for the Rock Climbing trip but my parents have to spend a lot of money on that, thinking that I will repay them when I grow up to become rich and famous or something. I'm sad also because I got no local athlete (who had competed for Singapore before) to interview for my PW. I'm also sad because I have Bio SPA this Saturday. I'm also sad because some people do not reply to my smses. I'm also sad because I want to watch King Arthur, Garfield and Kill Bill 2 but I don't think I can. I'm also sad because my crush will not be in TPJC anymore by the end of the year...I'm going to miss him terribly...Wow, I didn't know I'm feeling THAT sad.

I'm only happy because there's Rock Climbing tomorrow and ('cause of the Racial Harmony Day celebrations) only TWO blocks of lessons! Yeah!

xx

"You have to work hard to achieve your peek, only then will talent bring you that bit further and make the difference" by a friend

I must never ever forget to cut my toe nails ever again. The climbing shoes are just too tight for my long toenails. The toenail of my middle toe of my left foot has been pealed off...well, half of it...and it looks ugly...

Orh, my results for CT: -
Maths - A
Chemistry - C
Biology - C
GP - C6
MT - B3

Aim for Promos: -
Maths - A
Chemistry - B
Biology - C
GP - C5
MT - A2

Actually I doubt I can ever get an A2 for my malay. And I'm afraid I can't maintain an A for my Maths...

Sigh...why's my class so smart? I really need to work harder. Though a relative of my friend said it's ok if we fail all our common tests because he failed everything too! And what did he get for his A-levels? 2 As and a B I think...sigh sigh sigh...
And Mrs Neo said one of our seniors who got 2 As and a C can't get a place in NUS at all...so how?

By the way, I really want to go for the OCIP (Oversease CIP) at Thailand! Almost my whole class want to go but I can't. Actually I can but I'd rather go for the Rock Climbing trip at Thailand. It'll be such a cool experience...climbing those natural rocks...though the trip there will be expensive...10-day trip...with about ten bucks on food each day...

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Who's HBP??? Who? Who? Who? I sound like an owl...WHO????? Argh...it is so irritating! Oh, yar, I died for my Chemistry...(Who is he? Who?) and I hope I get ok marks for Maths... (WHO??) and I so need to study Biology right now...Bi-O-lO-Gy. Argh! J.K. Rowling better write that book fast.

Curse me for being such an introvert. Everyone around me talking to everyone else but I was standing alone by myself with no one to talk to...and again miss my chance to...hai...nevermind...

He's gone, anyway, so I'm now going to stop thinking about him and really start concentrating on my studies. I really must be able to go to the Thailand trip at the end of the year. Mrs Lim will only let us go if we get 2A and 2AO passes. If I can't go, it'll be too embarrassing...

And I met Jaime again at City Link. It's really funny how we keep bumping into each other...

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Listening to the news! Again? 'Well, it changes every day, you see,' said Harry. -- OotP

Oh dear...there's a really great risk that that crush of mine will read my blog...so I'm going to delete that post soon...I just it's too nice to be deleted...don't you think? I don't know how I manage to express myself like that...dumdeedum...I'm nuts...By the way, did anybody know that Prong (no no not Prongs) is an American slang for the male sex organ? It says so in the Longman dictionary of contemporary words...if that's what the dictionary's called...I kinda forgot...

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He had just made Harry feel rather better by telling him how he had told the examiner in detail about the ugly man with a wart on his nose in his crystal ball, only to look up and realize he had been describing his examiner's reflection. -- Ron, OotP

I was at Orchard MRT station giving out survey forms for PW when I saw Jaime! Gosh, she is so tall and so...(ok, maybe it's just me who's short)...and so beautiful...she's wearing this black top with V-shaped collar and black pants too...going dinner with her family. Sigh...she is so cool and admirable, like always, walking that confident walk and smiling that great white smile...so hardworking, such great leadership qualities and nice and friendly gal...sigh, don't you just wish someone is talking about you like this?

Right, Munirah. That's why you're going to start studying hard to be as hardworking as her, right?

Sigh...

.

"And you won't look at any of us!"

"It's you lot who won't look at me!" said Harry angrily.

"Maybe you're taking it in turns to look, and keep missing each other," suggested Hermione, the corners of her mouth twitching.

"Very funny," snapped Harry

~OotP

He’s so cute! So handsome…so quiet…so strong…so muscular…aahh…too bad he’s a J2…I’m always falling for J2s…except for this guy in my class…though I didn’t really fall for him…I just told Swee Ying he happened to have that ‘smart’ look and she started teasing me already…

Oh and I re-read PoA and boy how much time did you wasted… and it’s just unfair how Harry gets to spend only 2 years with Sirius…it’s so unfair…Munirah, he’s just a character in a book…stop thinking about him and wasting your time!

Time…how precious it is…even though I got kicked out in the qualifying rounds in Rock On Competition, I still haven’t manage to start studying properly…got kicked out…’cause it hurts so much to not be able to qualify…anyway…I don’t think I can finish studying by the end of the June holidays…die…

And I didn’t drop the Frisbee lor…why’d they say I drop the Frisbee? He smacked the Frisbee from my hands, making it drop, and then he picked it up…ugh that lousy little…haish…but it was fun…the farewell barbecue for the Rock Climbing J2s…and they can start studying for their As already…As, Munirah…As…Just reminding you…

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ron: -awakes suddenly- 'the...the spiders want me to tapdance.. i don't...i don't wan't to tap dance, not with the spiders... the spiders... -continues babbling-
harry: you tell those spiders, ron.
ron: ah... i will... tell them... -collapses back to sleep-

HP3 is good! I wanna watch it again! Prob with my sis when she gets back from camp. And I can't type properly! My fingers all have flappers and blisters on them from rock climbing...competition is on Mon...nervous...but must relax...

Holidays...ya right.
I still have to do that GP essay and that Maths holiday assignment.
I must do the PW proposal form by Tuesday.
I must remind sweeying to bring the form to conduct interviews and surveys for tweety to sign...
And must remember there is PW meeting on thursday...
I should be writing all this in my diary...not here...why am I so lazy?

Anyway, just a couple of stuff I want to do during the holidays so I won't forget:
1. Start doing 100 push-ups every morning after I wake up, like Deborah and Mrs Neo (Mrs Neo does sit-ups everyday...wow.)
2. Study!
3. Study!
4. Study!

I mustn't slack, since my common tests are on the first week of July. Haish...I've really been slacking lor...messy room...messy file...messy everything...I must read up then read through my lecture notes before and after lectures everyday...like Ahmad...and did I mention that Liling scares me? She's such a mugger...I feel stressed around her...and Bernice is starting to be like her too lor...actually a lot of people in my class are hard working...haish...I may be getting ok marks now although I'm slacking, but if this trend continues...I'm going to die...(ugh...this trend this trend this trend...stupid PW proposal form...)

I just remembered I must also make time to do those interview and survey for PW during the holidays...see what my group say first...

And I must start studying during the 3rd week of holidays...since i don't take part in the speed event for Rock On...1st week no time 'cause got make-up lectures (by the way, the teachers want us to hand up the GP essay by Friday, but they will never have time to return to us before the common test...what the...it's just like the AQ questions...that Rukhaidah make us do so many but never return one...so irritating...) then 2nd week got Rock On competition which I'm taking part in...must work damn hard for that...but I must also not forget PoA!!! Of course not...I still haven't decided who to watch it with...maybe i'll ask sweeying and mayble they all...hm...

Anyway, today had been fun meeting the SR people again at Pumfest...sad that bonnie has little time to practise rock climbing though...'cause of PW...and it just had to rain today...it just had to...

Well, you guys can try to make sense of what I just wrote...my English is very very poor...I do the 1100 Words book also no point...compare this English with Adam and Elaine's...haish...I'm very sad...I scared I fail my GP leh...they still haven't return us our faculty test yet...haiyah...and how to get 2 A and 2 AO passes for my promos huh? How huh?

Hah...as if I'm really worried about all this...

To munirah: So I did stole your name. Whatcha gonna do about it, eh? ^_^

And so, we lost the 12x1m race 'cause of the guys who played soccer while we were running, and thus without their support, we lost the race.

Anyway, how am I going to study for Perdaus exam (my religious class) when I have so much Maths homework to do, huh???

xx

"THEN YOU SHOULD HAVE DIED! DIED RATHER THAN BETRAY YOUR FRIENDS, AS WE WOULD HAVE DONE FOR YOU!" -Sirius Black, HP&thePoA

I realised my blog is quite outdated. I will update it now...a short one...dum-dee-dum...Let's see...what's been happening lately...

Oh, our class qualified for 12x100m relay...let's hope we win this friday, which is sports day...yeah! But before sports day is chem faculty test day...which I might just fail...still haven't studied yet...argh...that's why I shouldn't be online right now...playing neopets...that silly Wheel of Monotony is still turning around and around and around...only Aliah would know what I'm talking about...hehe...she still plays neopets...haha...so funny...hahaha...how many people in JC still plays neopets? Hahaha...just find it funny...she even fought in the recent war in neopets! Hahaha...ok, I'm going to watch Smallville now...bad Munirah...you should be doing your work...but what was I doing before this? Reading one of Dean Koontz's books...for two and a half hours...hai...naughty naughty Munirah...

xx

Will Turner: This is either madness... or brilliance.
Jack Sparrow: It's remarkable how often those two traits coincide.

If only I hadn't fall...damn it...I was totally focused lor...I was ready to run, ready to take the baton from elaine and ready to pass it to bernice, and ready to smile and see dashini running in to get 2nd place (since we got the silver baton)...but guess what? I fell...I want to blame it on elaine for telling me to slow down but then it's my fault for not being careful and predicting the worst that could happen...argh...

It's also my fault for not taking good care of myself last night...I should have drink more water, should have slept early, having done my work in the afternoon instead of slacking and doing it at night till 12a.m. If only...if only...then me and elaine and bernice and dash would be at the milo truck during sports day, drinking milo and waiting for our 4x100m relay to start...

None of that had happened...instead I'll be crying while I'm bathing 'cause of the pain of that bloody wound on my knee, and praying and hoping that it will heal by Wednesday so that I can do some rock climbing...which I doubt will happen...I can be such an idiot sometimes...not to mention me slacking in my school work...ugh...Munirah, when are you ever going to learn from your lessons?

xx

"Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I'm not sure about the former."

Clark is an idiot. If he wants to help his 'friend' so much then just tell Lex the truth about himself lah! And how could Lana say that to Clark??? So Lana doesn't truly love Clark after all...hmph. You don't deserve her, Clark! And I don't get Lex's father...is he saying the truth? Sigh...such a sad case...I can't bear to lose another child said he...

Now Munirah, go do your work. Mrs Neo said that from the O-levels chem grades my class got, she predicts that we can only get a B or a C for our A-level Chem...like...what the...sigh...better start working hard...

xx

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hold
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

~Hurt, Johnny Cash

Dumdeedum...wanted to go back to rgs with eli and liyana but got no time...sigh...been so tired lately...been piling things up...I know things are going to get worse...haish...but I had fun at rock climbing today...as always...yet I still miss sr rocmoc...I seriously should have stayed at sr you know...especially with mr azahar and the exciting gp lectures where we get to watch movies...sr teachers are quite good lah...miss it a lot...sigh...my mum's coughing again...she's always coughing...what's her problem huh? Keep telling us to eat those vitamins and whatever CNI stuff yet she herself don't want to look after herself...I haven't been looking after myself either...I'll like play the whole day then work the whole night without sleeping...hah...very unhealthy...heck...need to do my work now...(Munirah go do your work you lazy pig...time-management...)gosh...can you believe it's April already? Wah...I should start counting down to the A-levels...haha...I'm nuts...I'd rather count down to PoA...yeah! I can't wait!

"I solemnly swear that I am up to no good."