I had a bad dream. I dreamt that I died. I had a bad dream at 2am and now I'm too afraid to go back to sleep. And here I am online instead of doing some prayers to help me calm down. And worse I don't feel like talking about this dream so I don't want to talk to anyone at all right now. I hate myself. I think I know why I had that dream. But I still don't want to go back to sleep. Sigh.

What to blog about...Went fishing with my sister and her fiance's family at Punggol the other day. I love fishing...

Three of the Angling Club guys went Kelong again. I'm jealous.

Denzil has an msn display picture of himself holding a 1-metre-long Mekong Cat Fish which he caught in Thailand. I envy him.

Then the other day jw, sham, eunice and I went Labrador Park to enjoy nature. (Saw Kaijing who was coming back from sotonging at 11am and felt like fishing again.....but I didn't go there to fish. Sigh.) I love the clean blue waters at Labrador Park...and I love meeting up with my secondary school friends...we talked about going to Corsica next year! Hahaha...I must work hard and save enough money! If I manage to save enough then I'm definitely going! Hehehe...

And then I also went rock climbing with my cousins. I really love rock climbing...that great sense of achievement when I reach the top...I miss it...And the aching muscles when I wake up the next day...I miss that too...Haha...

And that stupid crush is still in my head. I don't like having crushes. If there's a Malay version of him I'd take him. No, cannot. I don't want to chase guys.

Haa...holidays till Wednesday...but must still study...sigh...and I'm still being my lazy self lah. I've wasted 4 hours...hah...so...I think my new years resolution is to stop procrastinating on my work and also on my daily chores. Did I make this resolution last year? :P

And now I shall go clean up my room...I really don't want to sleep.

Oh and have a Happy Chocolaty 2008 everyone :)

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Strength is the capacity to break a chocolate bar into four pieces with your bare hands - and then eat just one of the pieces ~Judith Viorst

Three days two nights out at the kelong near Sibu Malaysia...I must blog about it! Though there's a lot of things I should have blogged about but never bothered to. Haha. Man the sea is GreaT!

I just joined Angling Club and I'm really enjoying the people and the activities. I love the excitement of catching fishes! I love the people there. There's just too many things to talk about! And the feeling of using my first rod to catch fishes is great...I think I brought home around 5kg of fish haha...ahahah maybe not that much la. I love my Cherrywood rod and my Mitchell reel! Though I probably need to get other rods for bigger fishes. That second-hand orange reel line I got is very light and very bright orange hehe...I love to cast it and see it fly in the wind.

I tried to catch a todak but caught nothing instead...well bad luck I guess. I tried my sotong lure too but I didnt catch any sotong either. And I tried to catch a big seklar (sp?) with Humphrey's rod but I didn't catch one either. Gosh...why all the times I try to catch a fish different from the normal fishes, I fail one...haha. My friend caught many big seklar and she sold them haha. Though she sold them cheap it's still money right. I must try harder to get bigger fishes haha!

It's amazing, three days two nights of continuous fishing. I'm surprised my friend can tahan very long cos I took many breaks in between. Ooh and the freshly sliced seklar with wasabi is damn nice. Three days two nights and 9 meals...great food too hehe.

And I love the second night when my astronomer friend showed us all the stars in the beautiful sky which we can't see at home. I found the switch which switches off the stray lights, and then my friend took out this very strong laser which can point to the stars and it's very cool la. And I learned a lot about the sky too. I saw the tiny red planet Mars, and I saw the orion's belt and found his sword, and also saw the seven sisters, and saw gemini, and saw sirius and canapos and can also roughly make out the milky way...it's just beautiful. My friends saw a shooting star but I missed it. Shooting stars are too fast for me...sigh. Wishing I can see it one day...hehe.

Let's see what else. I met Desmond the todak master and he's one of those hardcore fishermen heh...go kelong almost every weekend. It's very good if you're rich la. My friend say I can meet many kinds of people through fishing, even rich people and people doing business and with many lobang...well I met one who lives near Vivocity...how rich can you be ah living there. Haha. He's a very nice guy though, helps out us newbies a lot, though he's not from my school. He helped me unhook the fish when I catch one. Haha.

It's funny I still scream like a girl when the fish suddenly jump at me. I seriously have to control my screaming. The people there are nice though. When my hook gets sangkut they would help me out although I don't know them. Oh and Humphrey is great la. Ask him for pliers and he walk around the kelong looking for it...and found his rod instead and just stood at the side and start fishing. And I was blur just looking at him cos he didn't give me any pliers. In the end he gave me some elses la. But where was his pliers ah...inside his box! Hah. Well I should get my own pliers soon. Hehe

I like being with nice people. There's one who sit there and watch his mp3 almost the whole trip...nice because he barbeques for us. He also helped us unhook the fishes and also put the bait...makes fishing easier, then I don't have to keep pausiing to put baits...

Haha the president of the club is so cute ok...little boy cute. And quite blur too...cannot ask him anything one, must ask Humphrey cos he knows more...funny ah...I love his cuteness haha...well for the whole trip must thank Humphrey for it...the organiser of the trip is very stress I can see that. Hah and I feel so stupid for leaving my white card in the van when at the customs cos he has to run back to get it for me...haiz...

Oh and Desmond's young nephew is very cute! He is so knowledgeable...and proud too. He loves to tell us everything he knows and give us advice hehe. He wears a life jacket the whole time he's there cos I think he can't swim...haha and I told my friend I wouldn't mind getting a fisherman husband and go kelong like every month just to fish! There's no cute fisherman though which is quite sad. Then my friend told me there's that cute Desmond's nephew and we can wait for him to grow up and maybe marry him hahaha...funny joke...

Anyway I still love the kelong life. Hahaha...on the trip I couldn't really sleep on the first night cos the waves were very noisy but I was too tired on the second night to care. Oh I really love the kelong trip cos it's different from other trips. I wake up in the morning and straight away think of fishing (even this morning when I'm already off the kelong). Before I sleep at night I also think of fishing. That's why I sleep very little there. There's a lot of things to do, which is fishing...haha I want to go there again! But after my exams or something...I didn't feel like coming back to singapore and continue going to school haha. I love the kelong life...

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"You really look like your father...except for your eyes. You have Lily's eyes..."

I'm at work now and I have nothing to do...Harry Potter the movie is great...especially the battle at the end. And I love the thestrals, those reptilian invisible creatures that only Harry and Luna can see. Luna is interesting. And Sirius dying by the Avada Kedabra is much better than him dying by stupidly falling into the veil. Daniel Radcliffe is too old. Emma Watson is pretty but she can't act, and I actually like Ron but I don't like Rupert. Ooh I think the twins are much better actors. The scene of them fleeing from school is interesting but does not do them justice. And I definitely like Draco Malfoy haha because of the Draco Trilogy. Haha why am I talking about who I like...

Oh and Eun and Sham suspects that the person who was forgotten in the first original script in the movie but forced to brought back by Rowling is...Kreacher haha...But.....Kreacher somehow reminds me of Gollum...would Kreacher's part be similar to that of Gollum's near the end? Ahaha erm...I like Dobby >.<

I can't wait for Saturday! I keep thinking Snape probably want to give Harry his potions book, because he probably knew that Harry has the book ever since he saw Harry used Sectumsempra. And in the seventh book, Snape is going to help out Harry, but Harry is not going to appreciate it duh. And is RGB actually Regulus Black, Sirius's brother? Probably ah I want to know! Maybe it's another lame person like the HBP turn out to be. Before the book came out, who'd have thought Prince is the last name of a person? And I hope Ron would sacrifice himself for Harry haha cos I like sacrifices of best friends...been reading a lot of anime fanfiction.

Haa...okay I think my temp colleage beside me is bored now. Can you believe it's two people to one computer here at work...sheesh...

When things go wrong
As they sometimes will
When all the road seems all uphill
When I feel like lying down to cry
I look again and then I sigh
The worst is not happening to me
Its happening to others that I cant see
And when I open up my eyes
I cry not for me but the passers bys
My acquaintances and friends
They’re hurt much more
The fun I enjoy
That others cant toy
Hate I cannot
Love I must
This life that I have
That Allah has blessed

Alhamdulillah

Freaking bitch. I need to go shopping but the gst increased already. And I'm supposed to go Malaysia now but got a few things not settled.

Man, why is it when people get mad they just blame everyone around them. Fine I might have made a mistake and I won't repeat it but what's done can't be undone right.

That freak makes my life so difficult. We can't even close one deal. And that jeffrey...argh I don't know what to say...

And it's already Sunday, where in the world is that scanlation for Bleach??

Ok so I got an admin job from my job agency and so did my friend but she got a customer service job, and that ain't very entertaining with all the complaints that she has to go through everyday. And because of that I'm feeling a bit guilty that I got a so-called easier job than her.

Why must getting a job be so difficult? Haish...well why dwell on the problems in life. But then when I try to think of something else I feel guilty that I am not finding a way to solve the problem, but then again there's really nothing I can do about it for now.

And I'm just talking about a bunch of stuff not exactly related to each other.

Haa...I enjoyed Thursday very much though, meeting up with friends always makes our problems go away. We watched V for Vendetta at jw's place and I just love her home theatre system hehe...

Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of Fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is a vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished. However, this valorous visitation of a by-gone vexation, stands vivified and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin van-guarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. [carves V into poster on wall] ~V for Vendetta

"OFFICIAL 6 DIGIT EARNER" ~ somebody's msn nick

And he's only 23 years old. I suppose I should just ask him and learn some tips from him but but but do you know how busy he is and do you know how I don't want to be that busy and can you even imagine earning that much ok nevermind.

Yeah! Exams over on Thurs! Time to get a job soon...Ven asked me to teach at certain schools with her since we live so near each other...she's an interesting person you know...I've never really talked to her but since the first day of exam (090507), I wasn't sure how to get to expo, so we met at the bus stop to go together and we've been meeting at the bus stop ever since...and in only like 3 days I feel like I know a loT about her. She's a very sincere friend, and even told me that I have to be more sincere as a friend too, by dropping all barriers and just being myself...but how to do that...after that mlm incident...actually I did learn a lot from nti...but in the end, after struggling for so long, I decided to quit ...do you know how much I feel like a failure after that...But that's a whole different story which hurts to tell...And anyway, secondly, I've never had a proper job before, just because I was stopped by that mlm...and then there's Mr Zen...he keeps appearing in my dreams and I can only wonder why...sigh...

You know, I somehow dread the holidays...haa...and during the hols, i feel i should get rushi's notes to start studying for next...yeah haha let's hope i can walk the walk...gah...

And Sham is at San Francisco! The furthest I'd go this holidays is malaysia haha...Perhaps with sy and the others yeah yeah yeah...

:) Yifang probably don't remember, but she did sent me that picture of Daisuke up there and I made it into a skin yeah! I took a whole year to make this skin and I only completed it because I didn't feel like studying.

What else do I do when I don't feel like studying? Oh I go around and look for spiderman comic books in the library and I have to admit spiderman is my favourite cartoon superhero. I really love his funny remarks during his battles...they are just so very lovable. And I just love his spider sense... Why they didn't they show any of his spider sense in the third movie?? Oh but the third spidey movie is still great anyway hehe...Next up is the Pirates movie yeah!

Ok let's try posting a youtube video hmmm... Ok I got it..."This song is based on a true story from the Hadith. The singer/talker in the story is an old lady talking to Prophet Muhammad (pbuh), but she does not know that he is the prophet. When she learns, she embraces Islam."

Lyrics can be found here: http://www.wharnsby.com/Lyrics/archives/000195.html

I just love Dawud Warnsby Ali's voice, so I thought I'd share...And this song keeps playing in my head while I'm doing my final exams.....I love Rasulallah s.a.w..

April Fools Day! Fred and George Weasley's birthday today! Haha...I can't wait for the movie and also HP and the Deathly Hallows!

Shafiq! I'm funny meh? Haha...And why can't you just organize your own gathering since you want it so much..Maybe in June or something...Now got exams...which I didn't do very well for the Prelims...

Gah...I know I really need First Class Honors...aim for the moon, fall on the stars...something like that...And Nazism is always asking me about updating my blog...nah I update ok:

A weird conversation I had today...

Wei Kian says (6:13 PM):
but well, is ur elder sister in a position to intervene

Wei Kian says (6:13 PM):
or is she like living elsewhere

Wei Kian says (6:13 PM):
coz she's married

*muni* says (6:14 PM):
nah she's here, shes not married, just engaged

*muni* says (6:14 PM):
i guess i can get her to help

Wei Kian says (6:14 PM):
O_O

Wei Kian says (6:14 PM):
got diff?>

Wei Kian says (6:15 PM):
haha ok i didn't noe sorry

Wei Kian says (6:15 PM):
well i guess u can

Wei Kian says (6:15 PM):
if she's open to helping u

*muni* says (6:15 PM):
married is can sleep in the same bed with husband but engaged cannot haha

Wei Kian says (6:16 PM):
what the lol

Wei Kian says (6:16 PM):
i didn't mean it THAT way lah haiyo hahaa

*muni* says (6:16 PM):
u asked wat!

*muni* says (6:16 PM):
thats the most obvious answer hehe

ROFL...Yapyap my sister is getting married in 2009...I think...And she's only two years older than me...I'm happy for her...

Ooh ya my friend gave me a Tsubasa Chronicles manga volume 2 for my birthday...My first manga ever! The best is till Bleach though. (No I don't watch Naruto...no time and not as fun as Bleach.) And who's the coolest villian ever? Ex-Captain Aizen!

But the most kawaii is still Hitsugaya! And the most dumb girl who should really concentrate on her studies is Me! Seriously, I can't repeat the same costly mistake I did last year. So what am I doing online??

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"Good morning Espada. We've been attacked by the enemy. First though, I suppose we should...warm up some tea." ~ Ex-Captain Aizen

Whee...I deleted some of those rubbish posts in my guestbook...haha...don't know what's the point of having the guestbook but nevermind...

And I updated my Pentium3! My computer is so much faster now and I'm feeling so much happier...hehe...also because the camp I organized went well in the end...happy happy happy :)))

Slept the whole day today since I hardly slept during the camp...woke up in the wee hours of the morning to see my little sister laughing over the phone with her boyfriend...

Anyway, exams are coming! I have to go full steam ahead...My prelims start on 28th feb and I need to focus on nothing else but that...sigh...and it doesn't feel like exam period at all...how how how...

Oh my friend introduced me to a series called One Litre of Tears...a very poignant and inspirational story...which I haven't got the time to watch but I will once I can...

And there's 23 days left to a very important day...is it 23 days or maybe I lost count...haha...

Happy happy happy

"but ya *pat* ur a gd fren i really hope the best for"

Gosh, sometimes I feel so down, so useless, so unwanted...and then someone suddenly throws me that kind of sentence and my spirits soar...

And now for those who keep telling me to update: I updated! Now please don't check this blog till 2008...oh and Happy 2007 everybody! May this year be the year of peace!