Ok, fine, I don't hate it. I must look at things positively and learn from my mistakes. What does it matter if I don't follow my 2004 new year's resolutions, right?

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‘Are we good to go?’ roared Root into his mike, as though it wasn’t whisper-sensitive.
‘No need to shout Commander. These headsets could pick up a spider scratching in Madagascar.’
‘And is there a spider scratching in Madagascar?’
‘Well…I don’t really know. They can’t really–’
‘Well, stop changing the subject, Foaly, and answer the question!’

~Artemis Fowl

i totatally hate this. i totally hate this. i totally hate this. i want to act confident. i am confident, i am. but am i really? i just do not want to think about it. lucky some people get to go overseas. don't need to study in jc. stupid stressful life. i hate this. complacent. depression. stupidity. regret. idioticness...is there such a word? y can't i just...just...just...shut off my mind somehow...sigh...forget it. i just totally hate this. it's my own fault anyway. if i got retained, then i deserve it. i deserve to get retained. deserve to be embarrassed when the new j1s come in. deserve to lose all the nice friends i made this year. deserve to die. should i post this or just throw it away? i shall

My exams only end on the coming Wednesday and here I am...and I even managed to finally read Artemis Fowl, which is an irony, since I've been avoiding that book since the beginning of the year because of my heavy workload. Anyway, that book is great! I can't wait to read the next one! It's so magical and so cool too...bad guys give me tingles all over...Hehe...Do you remember these quotes:

The dwarf swallowed dryly. Wasn’t it typical of the Dwarf Brotherhood? What do dwarfs hate? Fire. Who are the only creatures with the ability to conjure up fireballs? Goblins. So who did the dwarfs have to pick a fight with? What a real no-brainer.

and

[When Mulch, the dwarf, who was sneaking around in the house, was talking to Foaly, the centaur, who was in the watchtower.]
The hardware in Mulch’s eye flickered and sparked.
‘Oww!’
‘Sorry. Small charge.’
‘You could have warned me.’
‘I’ll give you a big kiss later, you baby. I thought dwarfs were tough.’
‘We are tough. I’ll show you just how tough when I get back.’
Root’s voice interrupted the posturing. ‘You won’t be showing anyone anything, convict, except perhaps where the toilet is in your cell.”

Dumdeedum...I'm feeling so very bored...I don't want to study...sigh...stupid PW...why must it be so troublesome...sigh...can't stand school...want to stay at home...but I can't stand home either...want to be in school...but school...got some friendship problems...problems with stress...problems with imaginary boyfriends...then go back home...I got problem with wanting to sleep sleep and sleep...when I wake up, I'll get a headache...don't know why...so I'll continue sleeping and sleeping and sleeping...I want to study...want to get 3 As...want to fullfill my parent's dreams...right...sigh...

Have anybody seen this site: www.jcguide.org ? It's damn funny lah...what it said about srjc is so true...and what it said about tpjc's short skirt is...also quite true...heh...oh man, my sis need to use the comp...sigh...exams suck.