'Thank God they allowed me to see her where she lay...and they showed her to me,' he [Lo Hwei Yen's husband] said. 'She still looked very beautiful.'

I sure hope he gets through this alright...sigh...it's still in the papers...I seriously thought terrorists attacks like the Mumbai attacks only happen in anime like Gundam or Code Geass which I really enjoy and laugh at the scenes with lotsa bloodshed, but looking at it happening in real life to a Singaporean is really heart-wrenching. It's like my favourite anime character dieing and I would cry when I watch it except that this is reaL. What's wrong with those terrorists?? Islam condemns this kind of senseless killings, but why do they continue with it with the full notion of knowing they wouuld get caught? There has to be a better way to spend our lives than training terrorists right? Will there be a day when these terrible things only happen in anime and never in real life?

Fingers got itchy again so I created another blogskin...the things I do when I'm suppose to be doing my assignment.

Hehe anyway, last month was good...hari raya is the same old...the better parts are meeting up a couple of times with some friends...I love meeting up with friends...it doesn't matter where we are (it doesn't cos I forgot the name of the place where we ate lunch eheheh), as long as we are with good company.

And that is my summary for last month. Haha ok I'm terrible at blogging...

Now I need to finish up on my FR assignment...and they are starting to sell Christmas decorations...and this will be the last year when I will suffer through Christmas...James will sure give us lotsa work...but Christmas next year I won't need to suffer anymore yeah! Just real work to look forward to...how fun! Ok I can stop babbling now...

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You simple-minded fool. Are you, by any chance, still evolving? ~ Franziska von Karma in Phoenix Wright Ace Attorney

Sham, I think you're the only one who still visits my blog lah...I spend more time making blogskins instead of actually blogging...not that I make lotsa blogskins...haa...

So what have I been up to?? Nothing much actually...just ran away from home like two months ago...cos of this hollering from my sis:

"You are so STUPID AND USELESS. Always using the computer and doing nothing. I want to use the computer ok. Why must you disturb me? You think you're so smart ah? Go to your room lah. Go lock yourself in your room. I don't want to see your face."

And she kept repeating the "Go lock yourself in your room." And I screamed at her that I wanted to do that, except that she was standing right there in front of my door, blocking it so I can't close it to do as she politely requested, so we just screamed at each other in front of my room door.

And when she finally let me slam the door, I grabbed a few clothes from my cupboard, throw them in my bag and stomp out of the house...went over to my aunt's place...

Meaning I ran away lah...gone for over a month...heh...although I seldom use the computer there, but I did enjoy my time there. Cos my aunt has 4 kids, the oldest is only 6 yrs old, and gosh I love those kids...

I don't know how children can bring so much joy to life with just their cute faces...always asking about me, opening my room door in the morning to wake me up, running to the door when I reach home from school, always disturbing me and asking me to feed them when I need to eat my lunch or dinner...it's so much more different than being at home...At home I feel unwanted, over there, I'm always being asked for attention...

Hee...the third brother...he is the fatest one...he calls me Kak Iya cos he still can't speak properly...he is also very irritating, always following his siblings around and disturbing them. And when irritated, his siblings would just scream at him.

But got once I was quite surprised...once after a screaming session, the big brother just said, "Taqif cute ah. Huuuug." And they sat there and hugged for a long time. It's a really cute scene but seriously...What's up with that?? I'm amazed at how forgiving his brother is. I would never hug my sister suddenly after an argument...would I do that 15 years back?

Sigh...and now I'm back at my own house for Hari Raya, I made up with my sister and all...but how I wish I can be a kid again...sigh...

Well I better switch off my computer now...I just spent a long time watching Nodame Cantabile...and I enjoyed the last episode hehe...the drama is quite good if you skip all the boring parts...gosh the yaoi parts were really irritating...anyway I was quite surprised when Chiaki hugged Noda in that scene by the river...sweet love...and now I'm not sure which drama to watch next...hee...and fall season anime coming up...

Well...life with my brother-in-law staying at our place is nice, but hasn't always been pleasant. I can't wait for them to get a new house. That's very bad of me, I know.

Other than that, I've ended my job and now I'm gonna help my uncle out with his finance in his company...unless they change their mind and decide they don't need my help anymore...It's my aunt who asked me for help cos she felt she had been neglecting her children cos of the company...

Sigh...I kinda miss my colleagues. They are nice people but the job itself can be too much sometimes. Oh and there's this person in my workplace who is very fatherly and very nice to talk to. He's one of the head in the engineering side. When he wants to scold us cos we keep disturbing him regarding our work, he'll scold in such a delicate way that I just had to smile among my feelings of guilt. Hehe...he always answers and explains everything to us in detail and in a very calm manner...I'm not sure how to explain it but I will definitely miss him cos he's different...he just has this charisma which is admirable...

Hmm...and other than that I had challets in the previous two weeks which I didn't write about here although I had a great time there :) Cycling, watching dvds, hanging out with old friends at the beach...

Oh ya I had been wondering silly things...when Muslims pray they have to face the Kaa'bah, no matter which part of the world they are at...so if there are Muslims on the Firefly (a kinda spaceship), which direction do they face when they want to do their prayers? Same goes for coordinators in Gundam Seed who live in space colonies which orbit Earth...which direction do they face? Haha...I was wondering this during my religious class...I'm so crappy sometimes...

Well...gah...I still feel I'm wasting my life away cos I don't know what exactly I want. Life is great, sure, but what about my future...there are many things which I keep avoiding but I know I have to face them eventually, since I'm graduating next year...time flies...

On a happy note, it's National Day! I watched a bit of the preview last week on the Singapore Flyer (oh the ride is quite nice but my grandma said that it was really nothing much...I think it would be much cooler when the IRs are up..) Anyway, Happy Birthday Singapore! How old are you again? I'm loosing track of the years hehex

MY HANDPHONE GOT STOLEN and it's not not my friend's fault and I will not not blame her cos it's not not her fault. It's not fair la. How many times have I said that over the past few weeks?

It's not fair that Myanmar and China had to suffer such terrible disasters. It's not fair that my friends have to lose their parents, when their parents haven't seen them on their wedding day. It's not fair that my friend has a boyfriend whom she keeps bringing with her to our study session so they can touch each other, while I sit there not feeling jealous. It's not fair that my exams are the last to end among my friends. It's not fair that my handphone have to get stolen!

We live in Singapore lei, are you that deprived till you have to steal things and hurt others? I went through that rebellious stage of stealing and I used to just say it's the survival of the fittest, but I don't do that anymore cos I know this word called empathy. Work hard for what you want la, why must resort to stealing? I hate this kind of people!

Argh...ok what happened was I was buying food from s11 and my friend was sitting like 2 tables away with our things and usually she waits for me to get back before she goes to buy, but that day she said she was very hungry so she left, thinking that I would be back in less than two seconds but I wasn't cos I was adding sambal to my food and all that. Well, I turned around looking for my friend but she wasn't there and I automatically thought that I was the blur one who forgot which seat we were sitting at. In hindsight after looking at the cctv, if I had just turned to my left at that exacT moment, I would have seen a guy walking off with our bags! But I wasn't looking for my bag what...I was looking for my friend's face...haiz...then we asked around and ran around the place looking for that idiot till we were huffing and puffing.

Then a lady came and said to check the cctv so we checked the cctv and I realised it was some malay guy loitering around who stole our stuff...or is it an indonesian...the cctv was not clear la.

We made a report to the police and all, since my friend also lost her stuff, including her handphone and mp3, thus she's in a worst state than I'm in...hai...I really wish that thief gets striked down by lightning while crossing the road and gets knocked down by a car and then gets striked by lightning agaiN, until he writhers up and dies and rots up in hell.

And while he rots, I have to start collecting my friend's contact numbers. Wonderful. As if I'm not stressed enough. And my friend saw me on that same day while I wanted to get my new sim card, and my face was so black at that time, I felt so silly for bumping into him. Haiz...I can't believe I still have to study after all this...

Ok girl, now move on or die for your exams.

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Life is unfair. That's the most idiotic sentence in the English Language.

My wisdom teeth surgery! You know, when they first pushed my bed down the corridor towards the surgery room, it was like a roller coaster ride, but its the part at the peak of the track, the dread just before the sudden fall...haha.

And after the surgery when I woke up from the General Anaesthasia, I started crying and crying and crying...I can't help it...I kept asking myself...where are all the handsome doctors just before I fell asleep?? Sigh...The nurses were all asking me why was I crying...How in the world do they expect me to answer with my swollen mouth?? Then they pushed me back to the waiting room where my mum was waiting for me and I felt so silly for crying...I can't exactly talk to her anyway, so I cried to sleep...

Four hours later, I still felt nauseous and had a terrible headache. There's this nurse which kept saying I shouldn't lie on the bed for so long, and kept pushing the top of the bed higher and higher so that I'm in a sitting position. Tsk...I wanted to throw the pillow at her man. But there's a nicer nurse too, who gave me ice-cream! So I was quite satisfied.

When I finally had the energy to go home, my dearest dad picked me up in the car, and I acted all happy, made lame jokes and conversation all the way home (in a funny voice cos I can't open my mouth fully), like how I was giggling just before the doctor injected me to sleep, and the doctor was surprised and said, "People are scared but you are laughing!" Actually I was scared lah, that's why I was giggling! Hah.

And when I reached home, I think the excitement took too much from me, cos I collapse on the sofa out of sheer exhaustion, and my headache came back, and then I started vomiting.....hip hip hooray...no need to study for one week...not.

Ah my first surgery...not much, but it's still an experience. Did I mention that I love painkillers? If only we can eat more of it at one go...haix...Oh well at least I'm still alive...Alhamdulillah.

What do I expect after the wisdom tooth surgery?
There will be pain and swelling in that side of the cheek which may sometimes be accompanied by a "blue-black" in the facial skin. You may not be able to open your mouth wide. All these would normally subside in five to seven days after the operation.

The following is a list of known risks and and complications associated specifically with impacted, wisdom teeth surgery:
7. Presence of foreign body in surgical site eg broken instrument.

The common but transient side-efects that may occur as a result of the anaesthesia are:
3. Inability to pass urine.

Alright! Pray for my wisdom teeth to be removed smoothly tomorrow. I still need to study but I really don't look forward to studying in the next five to seven days. Ah well...it's just a minor surgery so I should be thankful it's minor.

Yeah, another self-made blogskin! It took me another year cos I seldom go Photoshop...And it's a bit too elaborate but I don't care already...fire fire everywhere lalala hahaha...

Anyway, it's an improvement from my previous one, which I used Paint hah. Cheers to Photoshop! (Just why must it be so expensive??) And cheers to my friend who bought me the manga for my birthday, which I eventually used to scan in the picture and to design my blog. And cheers to Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle!

And since I'm not in the mood to blog, back to my studies!

I am currently making a new blogskin and it can really give me a headache...hah the things I do when my exams are near...I've really been wasting my time la...buying the rubrics cube and all...oh and I am proud to say that I have conQuered the rubrics cube!!! Well the 3 by 3 by 3 one anyway...

And so...we have mock exams before our real exams right...and I manage to pass my mock exam paper (while some people fail) but so what? It's not the real thing...and that is one of the things that presses the button for people to say, wah you are so hardworking...And again, people still expect me to graduate with First Class Honors? Please la. I'm not hardworking. I study cos I regret coming to this school and don't want to waste my three years. Ok I don't regret, I love my life right now. Met lotsa interesting people and all...but then even if we graduate with a First Class Honors, real working life is still not going to be easy. Haix...funny how fast time flies and soon I'm going to be a full-time working adult.

Anyway, I had a nice birthday this year. Went out with a few of my closest friends who give such nice and interesting presents. I love the zoo hehe. Even got a flower for Valentine's Day from my girlfriends. And my baby cousin wasn't born on the 9th but on the 8th of February instead. Hehe. He's so cute!

Ok I gotto go off for tuition now...

Oh ya I wanted to say something lame...the other day I was online in the morning and I couldn't decide whether I should switch on 987fm to listen to the deejays and so I ask myself out loud, "Hmmm should I listen to Dean & Sam?" and I was like, What??? It's Dan & Young, not Dean & Sam! I was too obsessed with the Supernatural series. Obviously, I was surfing for Supernatural sites at that time. Hehe.

And the Bleach manga is getting exciting again! Many fighting scenes coming up...I can't wait for the next chapter to come out. Ok ok I'm gonna be late for tuition...

My aunt's having a baby soon and he's due on 11th Feb, but I'm wishing she'd give birth on the 9th Feb instead...haha wouldn't that be fun! I would really love my baby cousin cos then I'd be exactly 21 years older than him hehe. But but but I want to remain 20 forever! Haha...and Valentine's Day is coming too, not that it matters but I want to receive a real life flower please. Hmmm...Maybe I'd just buy one and give it to myself ahahah...

Ok I got to study! My first paper is on 26th Feb!

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"We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think.
When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves." ~Buddha