I smiled at that. Because I think about the Elephants too much. It's the time of the month to feel down and I feel like whining... There's work tomorrow too. I feel like I haven't done the things I want to do :(

Bright side? Looking forward to 26th June. Cos it's a nice date to look forward to.

I'm only watching one anime this season and I feel so sad cos I just have no mood to watch anime anymore... Life.

Well...so I watched Gantz...tiny spoiler ahead... My first reaction after the movie was that the manga was so much better. Well, that's what I get for having expectations. But there are still the cool parts. The smart Gantz ball, the nice guns, the cool suit, Nishi's laugh and attitude (the guy who called Kato a hypocrite). The turning point in the movie was after that explosion with the boombox alien fight. When Kei still didn't return to the room, in my head I was screaming, Nooooooooooo! The movie got much more exciting after that. In the statue alien battle, Nino's character was as irritating as it was in the manga. I like it. I guess the movie was just more fun than gory, and more cool than thought-provoking.

Oh I found the trailer for Gantz: Part II: Perfect Answer. Look how exciting it is! Maybe I shouldn't watch this if I'm gonna be disappointed... They'll probably tone down everything from the manga... Butbut I can see some interesting familiar scenes there... gosh when I watch this (in November or something), I will have zero expectations. ZERO.

"If pap is lightning, and wp is hammer, both of them can work together to become Thor!"

Tonight is one of the nights I stayed up late noT to watch anime, but my mind is still on fantasy...

And being in my house in aljunied constituency, when the announcement that wp won came, I could hear the loud cheer around the blocks and I saw through the windows a half-naked guy dancing in his house. Wahahahaha. Well let's hope the two parties can really work together and we don't get sidelined just because aljunied is under wp now (geez you think?). I do appreciate what george yeo and all the pap has done since our independence, but wp played their strategy well, with voters taking this "leap of faith". So now there's more voice in parliament eh? But george yeo loosing his seat is :(

Oh I have to add that voting day can be surprisingly exciting. That feeling of wondering if my vote counts, did I make any difference at all, can pap really win from the things I've heard so far & what will happen if they don't win. First time voting is so interesting! Haha.

Oh well. Now I guess the construction of the new mrt line right outside my house (Ubi Mrt Station) will be delayed since pap didn't win eh? Darn I was looking forward to that MRT line. Hah.

I don't feel so good. I really hate pms. Everything seems meaningless. All I feel like doing is whining. I'm hating & avoiding everyone.

Last night, I saw a mother repeatedly hitting her crying child saying, 'Shut up. Quiet. I don't want to hear a sound.' Add lotsa exclamation marks. I feel awful seeing that. What is this thing called 'stress' that makes a person turn from a sweet, good-natured & smiling person to become a monster.

Ya whatever. She will probably hug her by the end of the day to say I love you.

But pms makes me see that shouting image of her mother & only that image. And what my mum said was, Life is like that. Argh! I hate life.

I need to put better images in my head. Like, what a great February I had this year. Great presents, great flowers, great friends, great family, went chalet, went to Universal Studios, went to the zoo to see Lucy again.

Wonderful. Kyubei, come take me away.

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Okay girl, get over it. It's only 10am. Stop hating. New day, new beginning. I think, speak & act positively. Smile for no reason.

I haven't got any mood to blog lately. Lemme try to squeeze something out...okay.

I just realized I'm still watching shonen anime & reading shojo manga, which is supposedly meant for people aged less than 18 years old. I should stop watching those & should start shifting towards seinen/josei (above 18 years old) type of anime/manga. Some friends have shifted, but for me, I don't wanna grow up!

I'm starting to think that's the source of my depression. Denial of age & refusal of responsibility haha.

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The fastest way to happiness is to look away from reality.