Trusting Him...But why are we still so afraid when all we see is a 4X6 picture of our life and He sees the whole canvas?

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I wish I'm more understanding sometimes. But I can't be that. I always don't understand why people do the things they do and why people feel the way they feel. I want to help but I don't know how...sigh...

Usually on my way home, I would think of going on my blog to just whine non-stop. Then once I'm online I'd be happy again. Away from humans. Don't need to understand them.

But then again...maybe it's about upbringing...or, you know...sahutan syaiton...

It's not easy to find the good side of people sometimes...ugh whatever lah...I'm not making much sense...

ANYWAY, today my family held a kenduri...hmmm...just thinking...why my Dad's side of the family so complicating ah? So many divorces. And even the one who got engaged in the end cancel last minute. I think cos he's around too many girls...he's good-looking too...but I don't know him ha. Still, my mum's side is easier to understand...all marry only once & marriage still intact...that's the best way to live a life...

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And now I'm bored. I want my long weekend back! Playing online till 7am...I want that back! Not that it was mine in the first place...but yea...that Amir guy I added as a friend in fb is from Flyff & from his photos, he looks like a cool & popular guy & with a gf too, he doesn't look like a Gamer at all...Haha...I guess looks can be deceiving? But still, don't want to mix my Flyff world with my real life anymore. Like...why does he have a gf & I'm still single... And other thoughts of how boring my social life is...ugh I don't wannt go fb...

Life can be so mentally tiring. Wish I can sit under a rock forever. But. No man is an island. So I need to be realistic. Yea.

Well, now, there's work tomorrow. Can't wait to complete the audit report. Thought I could complete it on Thursday but it got too complicated. I want to get it done & over with!

Oh...It's Monday already??

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When God leads you to the edge of the cliff, trust Him fully and let go, only 1 of 2 things will happen, either He’ll catch you when you fall, or He’ll teach you how to fly.

Yea sham, life is great isn't it...it's just sometimes we wish it could be a teensy bit better. And term break is coming right...hope you won't be too busy with your fyp during your term break...we should meet up!

Hee...ladeeda I really want to watch Fairy Tail! BUT, it's only out on wednesday...The little things I look forward to...haha...And I can't believe there's no Bleach manga this week...last week's one is awesome though...And is there really gonna be 50 filler episodes for Bleach...that's like a whole year of fillers...that's just sad sad sad...............

Sigh...I love Sundays...had a nice day in Flyff world today...my social life is gone...except maybe I go out for dinner on fridays...yea fridays are nice...

But work...is getting very mundane...what am I suppose to do tomorrow? Okay I need to fill up the audit papers for Mehta company...so much paper work...and earning so little...it's like one week I'm doing nothing but numbers, then the next week I'm doing nothing but paperwork...so busy one week, so slack the next...and one week is a LOng time...but I guess the environment is nice so I'm ok with my workplace.

Like I sometimes go on facebook during lunch and my colleague would get on it to help me harvest my farm in Farmville cos she enjoys it...and I just let her cos I tend to just do what others do so that I'd fit in...but Farmville is ok lah...I still don't really use facebook though...ha...

Anyway...watching Heroes now... I find Peter Petrelli very cool with his flying and mind control...hee...Sylar is cool too with his psychic abilities...and I'm just guessing the rebel is Noah, Claire's father...hmm

Problem is Heroes ends at 12midnight which is very late...I always end up late for work on Mondays!

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You're all aspiring to be hospitalized aren't you. ~ Fairy Tail before a fight :D