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Friday, May 23, 2003
Tuesday, April 29, 2003
"Mudah-mudahan, capailah cita-cita adik. Itu saja yang cik ucapkan"~pakcik yang jual curry puff.
How can I? How can I? I've tried so hard...& I'm still trying...but I just keep thinking that it's too late. It isn't too late, is it? Is it?
I think I'm suffering from emotional stress, unlike other people who suffer from stress because of school work...then again, it's just something I made up. Oh well.
"Every sixty seconds, thirty acres of rain forest are destroyed in order to raise beef for fast food restaurants that sell it to people, giving them strokes and heart attacks, which raise medical costs and insurance rates, providing insurance companies with more money to invest in large corporations that branch out further into the Third World so they can destroy more rain forests."
-- George Carlin, comedian.
ouch.
How can I? How can I? I've tried so hard...& I'm still trying...but I just keep thinking that it's too late. It isn't too late, is it? Is it?
I think I'm suffering from emotional stress, unlike other people who suffer from stress because of school work...then again, it's just something I made up. Oh well.
"Every sixty seconds, thirty acres of rain forest are destroyed in order to raise beef for fast food restaurants that sell it to people, giving them strokes and heart attacks, which raise medical costs and insurance rates, providing insurance companies with more money to invest in large corporations that branch out further into the Third World so they can destroy more rain forests."
-- George Carlin, comedian.
ouch.
Monday, April 28, 2003
I can't believe I slept throuhout the whole Amaths remedial lesson. it's been some time since i slept in class. And I was sitting in the frontest row too. Didn't Ms Koh notice? What's worse is i have no idea what was happening and now i have lots of questions which i still don't know how to do. What's the point of a remedial lesson if i actually slept through it?
I failed my geo and i know i'm gonna fail my bio and ss too. damn. i have to work harder.
"All that is needed for the forces of evil to triumph is for enough good men to do nothing."-- Edmund Burke, Brittish political philosopher.
I failed my geo and i know i'm gonna fail my bio and ss too. damn. i have to work harder.
"All that is needed for the forces of evil to triumph is for enough good men to do nothing."-- Edmund Burke, Brittish political philosopher.
Friday, April 25, 2003
But i was right in front of u when i was depressed. i've always been in front of u when i'm depressed. Sigh...I just broke down yesterday, kay? Nothin serious. It's bound to happen. Anyway I've made my decision to become a science student. I want my parents to be proud of me. But I must work hard to achieve that.
"Life without meaning
cannot be borne
We find a mission
to which we're sworn
-- or answer the call
of Death's dark horn
Without a gleaming
of purpose in life,
we have no vision,
we live in strife,
-- or let blood fall
on a suicide knife."
~The Book of Counted Sorrows
"Life without meaning
cannot be borne
We find a mission
to which we're sworn
-- or answer the call
of Death's dark horn
Without a gleaming
of purpose in life,
we have no vision,
we live in strife,
-- or let blood fall
on a suicide knife."
~The Book of Counted Sorrows
Thursday, April 24, 2003
GoD, I hate my life. Never thought i'd ever be saying that again but here I am HatinG My LiFe. I never wanted this to happen but here I am. Well, serves me right for keeping things to myself. My father warned me that this would happen. But hell, did I listen? No. Cry cry cry. I havent cried since so long...but it sure makes me feel better. Sure. And me life is still a mess. I hate them. I hate me for hating them. It's not even their fault. It's my fault. It has always been my fault. If I had made an effort to change, then they would change too. But I didn't. Hate myself for that. I have like a thousand billion reasons to hate myself right now. What's the point? Do I wanna be in the science stream or not? How come Shamiah was hesitant when I asked her if she wants to? Wat does that mean? What does that make me? I looser? I don't even have a goal in life...unlike jiawen. Damn it. Here I am trying to hold back my tears. Why, cuz I'm in school. I know I can't go home. If i do then I'll cry on the bus again, like last month. or was it last two months? How can time travel so fast? I shouldn't even be asking that question. I...really...really...need...a friend. There, I've said it. You know what? I'll just say the truth. I cant be a loner. But the thing is nobody will understand me. Who can I turn to? I was searching up and down for someone during lunch. I found one. And I was like, "Man, lucky thing she's here. Who knows what will happen if I didn't find anybody?" Well, I know now. And now, I have no idea what to do. It's times like these when I wish I can die. Can't find noone to stop these tears. Can't find noone to make it all go away. And it's all my fault...You know, I do want to be a science student. But I'm not making the effort to. What now? Is it still not too late? How can I continue with my life right now? How can I? But hell. I can't stay typing on this computer forever. That is never going to happen. But I don't wanna get out of here. All those people outside...sigh. Nothing I can do about it. By the way pam, thanks for signing into my guestbook. You'll never know how a few words can make a single person smile. I wish I could do that... Well, time to get on with my life & face the music. Well, partly because all those people outside are now coming in. Gottogo.
Tuesday, April 22, 2003
You have GOT to read this.
Ravenclaw Common Room:
"This is our common room entrance." Rachael gestured to the tapestry of a waterfall on the wall. "The password is easy. All you have to do to get in is tap it three times with your right hand. It's been charmed to recognize all the Ravenclaws, including you."
...
The Ravenclaw common room was amazing. It was large and circular, with one third of its walls devoted to bookcases and one third glass. The glass sections were like giant windows. You could see the lake and Hogsmeade Station from one, and the other towers and roofs of Hogwarts from the other.
The bookcase wall section was easily four stories high, with narrow wrought-iron platforms that reminded Harry of theater catwalks lining the bottom of each level of bookcases, and thin ladders connecting one level to another.
The ceiling was sloped, rising to a peak high above their heads. The common room was situated at the top of the tower, so it made sense. Hanging from the peak was a large duplicate of the Ravenclaw banner, as it was displayed in the Great Hall.
Harry turned around, and saw the last third of wall space. It was stone, but it was cheery and bedecked with 18 blue tapestries, one next to another. Harry saw that 14 of them were numbered 1-7, two at each number, one displayed a plate of fruits, one displayed a table of books, one displayed a sunny field, and one displayed a candlelit corridor.
All around the common room, there were chairs and couches. It had a huge amount of floor space, and most of it was efficiently used. There were four chess tables, with chairs on either side of them, study tables with between two and six chairs around them, cozy clumps of couches and chairs, and solitary chairs with small tables for reading. All of the furniture was either the same shade of glittery brown or a various shade of complementary blue.
The carpet was thick, lush blue shag, and when Harry lifted his foot it sprang back up about two inches from where his foot had crushed it.
"Behind us are the Ravenclaw portals." Rachael spoke again, gathering the attentions of the first-years. "The portals to the first year dormitories are labeled with ones, as you may notice. The portal to the girl's dorm has the picture of the woman, and the portal to the boy's dorm has the picture of the man. Once again, all you have to do is tap your right hand three times, and the wall will fade. Step through, and you'll be in your dormitory. They are magical transportation portals. All of the dormitories are really on lower levels of the tower." Rachael paused, and a few of the girls squealed excitedly. "The tapestry with the fruit is the portal to the Entrance Hall, right next to the doors to the Great Hall. The tapestry with the books is the portal to the library, though the Rowena Ravenclaw library is here for our use. The tapestry with the field will take you just outside the castle, onto the grounds. The tapestry with the corridor will take you back the way you came, to this hallway.You tap three times for all of those as well."
"The portals to the Great Hall, library, and outside work both ways as well. If you are in those places, you'll see a bronze stone in the wall, along with the normal stones. Tap on it three times to come back to the common room. Oh, and all the glass in the tower is one-way only. No one can see in."
~Stopper Death: Aconite by A 2946 [fanfiction.net]
Cool, huh? I LOVE the windows and teleporting part. Can I be in Ravenclaw now?
Ravenclaw Common Room:
"This is our common room entrance." Rachael gestured to the tapestry of a waterfall on the wall. "The password is easy. All you have to do to get in is tap it three times with your right hand. It's been charmed to recognize all the Ravenclaws, including you."
...
The Ravenclaw common room was amazing. It was large and circular, with one third of its walls devoted to bookcases and one third glass. The glass sections were like giant windows. You could see the lake and Hogsmeade Station from one, and the other towers and roofs of Hogwarts from the other.
The bookcase wall section was easily four stories high, with narrow wrought-iron platforms that reminded Harry of theater catwalks lining the bottom of each level of bookcases, and thin ladders connecting one level to another.
The ceiling was sloped, rising to a peak high above their heads. The common room was situated at the top of the tower, so it made sense. Hanging from the peak was a large duplicate of the Ravenclaw banner, as it was displayed in the Great Hall.
Harry turned around, and saw the last third of wall space. It was stone, but it was cheery and bedecked with 18 blue tapestries, one next to another. Harry saw that 14 of them were numbered 1-7, two at each number, one displayed a plate of fruits, one displayed a table of books, one displayed a sunny field, and one displayed a candlelit corridor.
All around the common room, there were chairs and couches. It had a huge amount of floor space, and most of it was efficiently used. There were four chess tables, with chairs on either side of them, study tables with between two and six chairs around them, cozy clumps of couches and chairs, and solitary chairs with small tables for reading. All of the furniture was either the same shade of glittery brown or a various shade of complementary blue.
The carpet was thick, lush blue shag, and when Harry lifted his foot it sprang back up about two inches from where his foot had crushed it.
"Behind us are the Ravenclaw portals." Rachael spoke again, gathering the attentions of the first-years. "The portals to the first year dormitories are labeled with ones, as you may notice. The portal to the girl's dorm has the picture of the woman, and the portal to the boy's dorm has the picture of the man. Once again, all you have to do is tap your right hand three times, and the wall will fade. Step through, and you'll be in your dormitory. They are magical transportation portals. All of the dormitories are really on lower levels of the tower." Rachael paused, and a few of the girls squealed excitedly. "The tapestry with the fruit is the portal to the Entrance Hall, right next to the doors to the Great Hall. The tapestry with the books is the portal to the library, though the Rowena Ravenclaw library is here for our use. The tapestry with the field will take you just outside the castle, onto the grounds. The tapestry with the corridor will take you back the way you came, to this hallway.You tap three times for all of those as well."
"The portals to the Great Hall, library, and outside work both ways as well. If you are in those places, you'll see a bronze stone in the wall, along with the normal stones. Tap on it three times to come back to the common room. Oh, and all the glass in the tower is one-way only. No one can see in."
~Stopper Death: Aconite by A 2946 [fanfiction.net]
Cool, huh? I LOVE the windows and teleporting part. Can I be in Ravenclaw now?
Monday, April 14, 2003
Okay, I've read DV12 and am irritated that Draco slept with Ginny, irritated that fake Draco kissed Harry, irritated that she let Tom enter Seamus's body, irritated that Dumbledore sent Harry to live with the Dursleys...and now I'm bored. Can somebody please recommend me some good hp fanfics?
But seriously, what's Dumbledore's problem anyway? That big old dope is just causing mischieve...thinking that he can defeat Voldemort? Thinking that he can make plans by looking at Draco's dreams? Didn't he suspect ANYTHING about those dreams? Even I had thought of the dreams as a set up. I hate Dumbledore. What do I care if you die? Hell, you're already dead.
But seriously, what's Dumbledore's problem anyway? That big old dope is just causing mischieve...thinking that he can defeat Voldemort? Thinking that he can make plans by looking at Draco's dreams? Didn't he suspect ANYTHING about those dreams? Even I had thought of the dreams as a set up. I hate Dumbledore. What do I care if you die? Hell, you're already dead.
Tuesday, March 25, 2003
"Where’s Ron?"
"I’m here," said Ron’s voice, from a spot next to Draco. "Why?"
"Erm," said Hermione, staring.
"I threw the Invisibility Cloak on him," said Draco blandly. "I got sick of looking at his face."
There was a sputtering sound, and Ron reappeared, having wriggled out from under the cloak he had, apparently, not noticed he was wearing. He was glaring at Draco again, and quite pink around the ears. "You – sodding – bastard –"
~From Draco Sinister
I just love it. Anyway, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, lalalalalalalalalalalalalala. Another ten months time. Yeah! Ugh, that makes me wonder, what will I be doing then?
"I’m here," said Ron’s voice, from a spot next to Draco. "Why?"
"Erm," said Hermione, staring.
"I threw the Invisibility Cloak on him," said Draco blandly. "I got sick of looking at his face."
There was a sputtering sound, and Ron reappeared, having wriggled out from under the cloak he had, apparently, not noticed he was wearing. He was glaring at Draco again, and quite pink around the ears. "You – sodding – bastard –"
~From Draco Sinister
I just love it. Anyway, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, lalalalalalalalalalalalalala. Another ten months time. Yeah! Ugh, that makes me wonder, what will I be doing then?
Tuesday, March 18, 2003
Freaking. Why must they keep changing the stupid thing? Stupid Ning. Don't wanna take responsibility of us izzit? Then might as well not be in charge of a CCA. I can't stand her. And the others also don't want to make an effort. Everybody relies on everybody else. Everybody blames everybody else. Why can't that freaking idiot just quit if she really doesn't care? Yar sure, and our manpower just becomes lesser and lesser. You already have your duty, so stick to it. Why push the responsibility to other people? And you know what she said? She said, "There's no point working so hard because nothing's going to get out of it." Argh. I especially hate her mother. She's making all this impossible! And what did my father say? He said, "It's the same when you start working." Man, if this is how it is in school, it's going to be hell when I start working. I just can't see why they can't do it. It's not that difficult lor. I hate everybody. I especially hate myself. Because it's my fault. It's always my fault. As quoted from Elizabeth, I'm a "two-headed snake." Destroying relationships, that's my job.
Saturday, March 15, 2003
Something bad happened today. The thing is, I can't tell anybody. She's too private about it. But it's not that bad. But still VERY bad. Is it our fault? Is it MY fault? Yes, of course it is. I am a HAPPY person, so it's my fault.
...Anyway, rgsrcy was doing urban hike at Orchard just now and we jogged back to school in two straight rows, with me at running the back. And smart me was wearing the "Why run when you can FLY?" t-shirt (202 t-shirt) and everybody who saw the group was like saying, "Fly lar, fly lar! Why are you still running?" Boliao.
I just love this poem:
"Darkness breaks, Moon awakes.
Night now brings the stars it makes.
Moon beams fall, Light up all.
From silvery woods there comes a call.
Grayish blur, Shaggy fur.
Food is this night creatures lure.
Brown deer, Very near.
It is brought down full of fear.
Deadly bite, Very tight.
Every wolf will feast tonight."
...Anyway, rgsrcy was doing urban hike at Orchard just now and we jogged back to school in two straight rows, with me at running the back. And smart me was wearing the "Why run when you can FLY?" t-shirt (202 t-shirt) and everybody who saw the group was like saying, "Fly lar, fly lar! Why are you still running?" Boliao.
I just love this poem:
"Darkness breaks, Moon awakes.
Night now brings the stars it makes.
Moon beams fall, Light up all.
From silvery woods there comes a call.
Grayish blur, Shaggy fur.
Food is this night creatures lure.
Brown deer, Very near.
It is brought down full of fear.
Deadly bite, Very tight.
Every wolf will feast tonight."
Friday, February 28, 2003
I got a B3 for my Malay! Yeah! Hell...what's happening to me? Anyway, I've decided to not worry and be HAPPY. I've gotten over my depression mood and am now officially HAPPY! I just LOVE my life! I will never think of giving it up ever again. I will now work harder. I'm planning to get an A1 for Higher Malay. I know I can. "If I think I can, I might. If I think I can't, I am right." Wow, I actually remember Maria Ho's quotes...South District Footdrill Competition is tomorrow and I can't wait to get it done and over with. After that there's the National Footdrill Competition (if we actually get in). I'm nervous, sure, but I'm not worrying now. Later. You know, one of the tips in that Being A Happy Teenager book is to write down all the things I have to worry about then write down a date when I can just sit and worry about all that. In the meantime, I can be HAPPY! And by the time that date have come, all the things to worry about it probably over! Yeah! Heehee...man, can you believe me? I know that other person who got a B3 too...but let's plan to work hard together, kay? The whole day today Jaime was repeating to me, "Let's work hard". And I will. I promise. Thanks everybody, for being there for me whenever I'm down, especially Jaime. She's a weird girl. You people have made a great difference in my life. And I now hope that I do in yours.
Yeah! Woohoo! I'm HAPPY! I feel like I can take on anything in the world! Come and try me...
Yeah! Woohoo! I'm HAPPY! I feel like I can take on anything in the world! Come and try me...
Sunday, February 09, 2003
Oh, come on, Munirah. It's your Sixteenth birthday! Why are you still crying, huh? Imagine, sixteen years ago, you were just a tiny infant being carried in your mummy's...
You just HAVE to bring my mum into the picture, dont you?
Ugh! Why the hell am I typing this into my blog? Right, because life sucks. And just because I've lived sixteen years of my life does not mean life is going to get any better.
You just HAVE to bring my mum into the picture, dont you?
Ugh! Why the hell am I typing this into my blog? Right, because life sucks. And just because I've lived sixteen years of my life does not mean life is going to get any better.
Thursday, January 30, 2003
Thursday, December 26, 2002
Quackers. liyana thinks the part at the top of my webpage is ugly because of the way the words appear on the dark red background. I never noticed. I am so unobservant. But heck. jw, take note of tt when u make more backgrounds for me, kay?
I am going overseas tomorrow! Wow, that sounded like I'm going to Australia or something. When all I'm going to is Genting for 3 days. Getting bored of that place, but at least there's a big, air-con room with big comfy bed & big bathtubs & carpeted floors...I like hotels. I'm leaving at 1a.m. in the morning for my dad to send us over since he is still working now. I so need a break. Sadly, I still haven't really started on AM. I can't stand Maths. I wish I could, but can't. I haven't started on holiday homework either. Same old, same old. Sigh.
I still haven't watch LOTR!!! I wanna watch! I wanna watch! I wanna watch! But I'm too lazy to walk out of the house. Sigh. Pathetic. The reason I really need to watch LOTR is because I wanna start getting excited by the Matrix! The two sequels are coming up in 2003 & I can't wait! I can't believe Newsweek released the plot! Why did I read it? I so can't wait! My 3 favouritest movies all in a row. HP, LOTR, & Matrix. Quackers.
Yeerks:
"They're a parasiticspecies, not very big or impressve to look at, just these slug-like things that can enter you head through your ear. They have a capacity to anesthetize the inner ear enough to allow them to burrow through the soft tissue. It still hurts but not as much as it should.
They dig their way straight to your brain and then flatten themselves out, spread themselves down into the crevices, tie directly into your synapses. They take control. Absolute control.
They read your thoughts, they sense your emotions. What your eyes see, they see. What your tongue tastes, they taste. If your hand moves, it's because they moved it. If you speak, it is the yeerk who has spoken through you, made you into a ventriloquist's dummy.
Over the sourse of years they spread like a virus. Invisible. Undetectable.
They are your teacher, your pastor, you best friend. They are the police officer, the TV news-man, the soldier. Anyone."
I am going overseas tomorrow! Wow, that sounded like I'm going to Australia or something. When all I'm going to is Genting for 3 days. Getting bored of that place, but at least there's a big, air-con room with big comfy bed & big bathtubs & carpeted floors...I like hotels. I'm leaving at 1a.m. in the morning for my dad to send us over since he is still working now. I so need a break. Sadly, I still haven't really started on AM. I can't stand Maths. I wish I could, but can't. I haven't started on holiday homework either. Same old, same old. Sigh.
I still haven't watch LOTR!!! I wanna watch! I wanna watch! I wanna watch! But I'm too lazy to walk out of the house. Sigh. Pathetic. The reason I really need to watch LOTR is because I wanna start getting excited by the Matrix! The two sequels are coming up in 2003 & I can't wait! I can't believe Newsweek released the plot! Why did I read it? I so can't wait! My 3 favouritest movies all in a row. HP, LOTR, & Matrix. Quackers.
Yeerks:
"They're a parasiticspecies, not very big or impressve to look at, just these slug-like things that can enter you head through your ear. They have a capacity to anesthetize the inner ear enough to allow them to burrow through the soft tissue. It still hurts but not as much as it should.
They dig their way straight to your brain and then flatten themselves out, spread themselves down into the crevices, tie directly into your synapses. They take control. Absolute control.
They read your thoughts, they sense your emotions. What your eyes see, they see. What your tongue tastes, they taste. If your hand moves, it's because they moved it. If you speak, it is the yeerk who has spoken through you, made you into a ventriloquist's dummy.
Over the sourse of years they spread like a virus. Invisible. Undetectable.
They are your teacher, your pastor, you best friend. They are the police officer, the TV news-man, the soldier. Anyone."
Thursday, December 19, 2002
Stupid. Now I can't see what's on my blog. It can't seem to refresh itself. Same problem as Shamiah. Damn.
A Dogglefox is a cute little petpet from Neopets. It looks like something in between a dog & a fox. Don't you all ever play Neopets anymore? Sigh. And why is only the monkey signing my guestbook these days? I really don't feel like updating my blog anymore unless people read it. And how am I suppose to know if they don't sign my guestbook, right?
I am so scared for myself. What's happening to me? I never eat anything these days. I've been fasting for the past few days & I only eat like one meal a day, because I'm too tired to wake up in the morning. But I can't even finish a plate of rice. Eat half of it and leave therest to my mother. I can't even eat fast food like I used to. Eat 3/5 of it then feel like vomiting. I don't even feel hungry in the morning. I see people eat but drool don't feel my mouth like it used to. The last time I went to see my P6 teacher she told me I'm very very thin. Sigh. I just want to die.
You know what? If I ever were to be taken over by the stupid yeerks, I wouldn’t bother resisting. I mean, what’s the point? I am already living a very sad and useless and boring life. If a yeerk were to take control of my body, I would ever be so grateful. That way, I wouldn’t need to make stupid dicisions anymore. The yeerk would make all the decisions for me.
Damn, a thought just came. If I were not to resist from the yeerk, that meant I'm helping them take over Earth faster. I should have resisted then I could have escaped & form a resistant force or something. If I don't resist, the fall of mankind would happen & it'll be my fault. Sigh again.
"Darkness breaks, Moon awakes.
Night now brings the stars it makes.
Moon beams fall, Light up all.
From silvery woods there comes a call.
Grayish blur, Shaggy fur.
Food is this night creatures lure.
Brown deer, Very near.
It is brought down full of fear.
Deadly bite, Very tight.
Every wolf will feast tonight."
A Dogglefox is a cute little petpet from Neopets. It looks like something in between a dog & a fox. Don't you all ever play Neopets anymore? Sigh. And why is only the monkey signing my guestbook these days? I really don't feel like updating my blog anymore unless people read it. And how am I suppose to know if they don't sign my guestbook, right?
I am so scared for myself. What's happening to me? I never eat anything these days. I've been fasting for the past few days & I only eat like one meal a day, because I'm too tired to wake up in the morning. But I can't even finish a plate of rice. Eat half of it and leave therest to my mother. I can't even eat fast food like I used to. Eat 3/5 of it then feel like vomiting. I don't even feel hungry in the morning. I see people eat but drool don't feel my mouth like it used to. The last time I went to see my P6 teacher she told me I'm very very thin. Sigh. I just want to die.
You know what? If I ever were to be taken over by the stupid yeerks, I wouldn’t bother resisting. I mean, what’s the point? I am already living a very sad and useless and boring life. If a yeerk were to take control of my body, I would ever be so grateful. That way, I wouldn’t need to make stupid dicisions anymore. The yeerk would make all the decisions for me.
Damn, a thought just came. If I were not to resist from the yeerk, that meant I'm helping them take over Earth faster. I should have resisted then I could have escaped & form a resistant force or something. If I don't resist, the fall of mankind would happen & it'll be my fault. Sigh again.
"Darkness breaks, Moon awakes.
Night now brings the stars it makes.
Moon beams fall, Light up all.
From silvery woods there comes a call.
Grayish blur, Shaggy fur.
Food is this night creatures lure.
Brown deer, Very near.
It is brought down full of fear.
Deadly bite, Very tight.
Every wolf will feast tonight."
Wednesday, December 18, 2002
Why are they all so against me helping my own yearmates? I can’t stand it, you know. I just don’t know. So should I help them or not? I feel so helpless. I mean, I see them trying as hard as they can…or at least I think I see. And then there I am not contributing my own efforts. I feel damn guilty. Yet my own relativse are telling me to ignore them. I guess I should. But I can’t ignore the guilty feeling. If I were in their shoes, I know I would find it difficult to handle the kind of stuff they handle. But still, it’s like they are very close together and I feel that with it being that way, they can get more things done than I ever could alone. I am getting lost here typing my thoughts down. Oh well, let it be, I guess. If it’s my family holding me back, it’s not my fault that I don’t help them, right?
Let's take the chair as example. She's very very enthu in her CCA. She actually likes doing them and her parents don't mind. But she's really slacking in her school work. So is that good for her, or bad?
Hey, I've got a Dogglefox! He's so cute! And he looks like Elvis when I make his hair stand up. Hehe.
I haven't started studying yet. Why am I so not worried about my AM? I get like 26% lor...I'm so damn tired. I'm tired of studying. I'm tired of watching TV. I'm tired of reading books. I'm tired of waking up. I'm tired of eating breakfast. I'm tired of travelling that long distance to school. And before long, I will be travelling the exact same distance and route to take my 'O's.
I've finished Badai Semalam and it was such a drama story. I can't believe his husband died. What a jerk. Ashik minum air setan je...then the wife also don't want to give a second chance. But then again, if my husband beat me up like thatm I'll probably hate him forever too. Sigh, what a sad life she had. Anyway, how am I going to return the book to shamiah? It's a bit the tattered and torn already. It's been through hail and shine and been thrown around from one corner of the house to the other...though my house is quite small actually...
"Tidak. Aku lahir bukan untuk menyeksa hati orang. Tapi kalau kau merasa terseksa maka itu bukan salah aku. Cuba menyalahi diri sendiri. Dan juga belajar kenal diri sendiri." ~ Mazni
Let's take the chair as example. She's very very enthu in her CCA. She actually likes doing them and her parents don't mind. But she's really slacking in her school work. So is that good for her, or bad?
Hey, I've got a Dogglefox! He's so cute! And he looks like Elvis when I make his hair stand up. Hehe.
I haven't started studying yet. Why am I so not worried about my AM? I get like 26% lor...I'm so damn tired. I'm tired of studying. I'm tired of watching TV. I'm tired of reading books. I'm tired of waking up. I'm tired of eating breakfast. I'm tired of travelling that long distance to school. And before long, I will be travelling the exact same distance and route to take my 'O's.
I've finished Badai Semalam and it was such a drama story. I can't believe his husband died. What a jerk. Ashik minum air setan je...then the wife also don't want to give a second chance. But then again, if my husband beat me up like thatm I'll probably hate him forever too. Sigh, what a sad life she had. Anyway, how am I going to return the book to shamiah? It's a bit the tattered and torn already. It's been through hail and shine and been thrown around from one corner of the house to the other...though my house is quite small actually...
"Tidak. Aku lahir bukan untuk menyeksa hati orang. Tapi kalau kau merasa terseksa maka itu bukan salah aku. Cuba menyalahi diri sendiri. Dan juga belajar kenal diri sendiri." ~ Mazni
Monday, December 16, 2002
Thursday, December 12, 2002
Hee...sorry jw. Blame you for no reason. But I really have no idea what you're talking about. What in the world is an image FILE & image HOST? What's the difference? But it is VERY nice. Don't ya'all just love the background? It's damn cool, kanz? I like it lots. Feel like I owe jw so much. Thanks again. You should give me a lesson some day.
And sham, that lose monkey in my guestbook is some lost girl called Pamela who just escaped from the zoo. Why don't you visit her blog? She loves Draco Malfoy like hell.
Oh & how could Derek & Drew get eliminate? They are too cute! Okay, not. My sis insisted they are. But I really thought they could win the race. Why are they so stupid? Follow Flo around blindly & assuming here & there. I can't believe them! But the way they have to go back to the other side & all...it's just so sad...I hate those brotheres Ken & Gerard. They owe Flo big one. And Flo is another one. Who ask her to share info with those jerks? Idiots. Pathetic idiots all of them. This way, the old people might just win. Whatever in the world are they going to do with the money?
And oooh...you should see my fishes! My gold fish actually laid eggs! My younger sis found them & was wondering what they were. When baby fishes came out of it, she was so excited! And you should see them! They are less than 1 mm long & they are so teeny tiny! They swim funnily, like jelly fishes. And they don't look like gold fishes at all! They are such cutie pies!
"I have so many different people inside of me I don't know which one to bring forth."
And sham, that lose monkey in my guestbook is some lost girl called Pamela who just escaped from the zoo. Why don't you visit her blog? She loves Draco Malfoy like hell.
Oh & how could Derek & Drew get eliminate? They are too cute! Okay, not. My sis insisted they are. But I really thought they could win the race. Why are they so stupid? Follow Flo around blindly & assuming here & there. I can't believe them! But the way they have to go back to the other side & all...it's just so sad...I hate those brotheres Ken & Gerard. They owe Flo big one. And Flo is another one. Who ask her to share info with those jerks? Idiots. Pathetic idiots all of them. This way, the old people might just win. Whatever in the world are they going to do with the money?
And oooh...you should see my fishes! My gold fish actually laid eggs! My younger sis found them & was wondering what they were. When baby fishes came out of it, she was so excited! And you should see them! They are less than 1 mm long & they are so teeny tiny! They swim funnily, like jelly fishes. And they don't look like gold fishes at all! They are such cutie pies!
"I have so many different people inside of me I don't know which one to bring forth."
Why is it everytime I try to do something, it turns out to be wrong? Especially when I gave an idea then everybody followed it but in the end it was the wrong idea so everybody had to re-do the whole thing with a better idea and they don't even let me help them do it because I suppose they are afraid I will do the wrong thing again.
And I am so sick & tired of watching & listening & smiling & laughing without actually saying a word. I want to be brave & give out my thoughts but I don't know how! It's damn irritatingz living everyday in fear of giving out the wrong thoughts. 3 days in a row! I thought I could die of jealousy. Of watching all of them & listening & smiling & laughing...
Ok, enough of bad thoughts. Let's think of dirty thoughts...On Tuesday we rc people had a combined RI & RGS Games Day thingie & it was a whole day thing. As always, there was disco at night & we had music & flashing lights & dancing & stuff. We were at the ri hall on stage & it was a big crowd. We were all crazy that night with the ri guys fooling around & doing stupid moves. Then two of the guys went off stage to the middle of the empty hall floor & started doing a stripties dance to the music. Too bad they stripped only their upper half because after that, some of the girls ran down & grabbed their T-shirts then ran off, laughing all the way. The guys ran off towards the back of the hall & hid behind the squash courts, embarrased or playing I don't know. Then more girls came down & chased after them with their camera & everybody was laughing like hell. While they chased them, other girls were having a tug-of-war with the stripties' T-shirts against the ri guys. We were fighting like hell too. It was crazy. In the end, we managed to chase those half-naked guys & took their candid picture. But then they stopped & said, "No, wait. We must pose." So they act all macho, showing off their biceps & stuff (& one of them had real good-looking ones). Like I said, it was one crazy night.
"There was no past & no future, only an eternal hovering in the presence of static bliss." ~ Felidae on the Road by Akif Pirinci
And I am so sick & tired of watching & listening & smiling & laughing without actually saying a word. I want to be brave & give out my thoughts but I don't know how! It's damn irritatingz living everyday in fear of giving out the wrong thoughts. 3 days in a row! I thought I could die of jealousy. Of watching all of them & listening & smiling & laughing...
Ok, enough of bad thoughts. Let's think of dirty thoughts...On Tuesday we rc people had a combined RI & RGS Games Day thingie & it was a whole day thing. As always, there was disco at night & we had music & flashing lights & dancing & stuff. We were at the ri hall on stage & it was a big crowd. We were all crazy that night with the ri guys fooling around & doing stupid moves. Then two of the guys went off stage to the middle of the empty hall floor & started doing a stripties dance to the music. Too bad they stripped only their upper half because after that, some of the girls ran down & grabbed their T-shirts then ran off, laughing all the way. The guys ran off towards the back of the hall & hid behind the squash courts, embarrased or playing I don't know. Then more girls came down & chased after them with their camera & everybody was laughing like hell. While they chased them, other girls were having a tug-of-war with the stripties' T-shirts against the ri guys. We were fighting like hell too. It was crazy. In the end, we managed to chase those half-naked guys & took their candid picture. But then they stopped & said, "No, wait. We must pose." So they act all macho, showing off their biceps & stuff (& one of them had real good-looking ones). Like I said, it was one crazy night.
"There was no past & no future, only an eternal hovering in the presence of static bliss." ~ Felidae on the Road by Akif Pirinci