I'm at work now and I have nothing to do...Harry Potter the movie is great...especially the battle at the end. And I love the thestrals, those reptilian invisible creatures that only Harry and Luna can see. Luna is interesting. And Sirius dying by the Avada Kedabra is much better than him dying by stupidly falling into the veil. Daniel Radcliffe is too old. Emma Watson is pretty but she can't act, and I actually like Ron but I don't like Rupert. Ooh I think the twins are much better actors. The scene of them fleeing from school is interesting but does not do them justice. And I definitely like Draco Malfoy haha because of the Draco Trilogy. Haha why am I talking about who I like...

Oh and Eun and Sham suspects that the person who was forgotten in the first original script in the movie but forced to brought back by Rowling is...Kreacher haha...But.....Kreacher somehow reminds me of Gollum...would Kreacher's part be similar to that of Gollum's near the end? Ahaha erm...I like Dobby >.<

I can't wait for Saturday! I keep thinking Snape probably want to give Harry his potions book, because he probably knew that Harry has the book ever since he saw Harry used Sectumsempra. And in the seventh book, Snape is going to help out Harry, but Harry is not going to appreciate it duh. And is RGB actually Regulus Black, Sirius's brother? Probably ah I want to know! Maybe it's another lame person like the HBP turn out to be. Before the book came out, who'd have thought Prince is the last name of a person? And I hope Ron would sacrifice himself for Harry haha cos I like sacrifices of best friends...been reading a lot of anime fanfiction.

Haa...okay I think my temp colleage beside me is bored now. Can you believe it's two people to one computer here at work...sheesh...

When things go wrong
As they sometimes will
When all the road seems all uphill
When I feel like lying down to cry
I look again and then I sigh
The worst is not happening to me
Its happening to others that I cant see
And when I open up my eyes
I cry not for me but the passers bys
My acquaintances and friends
They’re hurt much more
The fun I enjoy
That others cant toy
Hate I cannot
Love I must
This life that I have
That Allah has blessed

Alhamdulillah

Freaking bitch. I need to go shopping but the gst increased already. And I'm supposed to go Malaysia now but got a few things not settled.

Man, why is it when people get mad they just blame everyone around them. Fine I might have made a mistake and I won't repeat it but what's done can't be undone right.

That freak makes my life so difficult. We can't even close one deal. And that jeffrey...argh I don't know what to say...

And it's already Sunday, where in the world is that scanlation for Bleach??

Ok so I got an admin job from my job agency and so did my friend but she got a customer service job, and that ain't very entertaining with all the complaints that she has to go through everyday. And because of that I'm feeling a bit guilty that I got a so-called easier job than her.

Why must getting a job be so difficult? Haish...well why dwell on the problems in life. But then when I try to think of something else I feel guilty that I am not finding a way to solve the problem, but then again there's really nothing I can do about it for now.

And I'm just talking about a bunch of stuff not exactly related to each other.

Haa...I enjoyed Thursday very much though, meeting up with friends always makes our problems go away. We watched V for Vendetta at jw's place and I just love her home theatre system hehe...

Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of Fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is a vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished. However, this valorous visitation of a by-gone vexation, stands vivified and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin van-guarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. [carves V into poster on wall] ~V for Vendetta

"OFFICIAL 6 DIGIT EARNER" ~ somebody's msn nick

And he's only 23 years old. I suppose I should just ask him and learn some tips from him but but but do you know how busy he is and do you know how I don't want to be that busy and can you even imagine earning that much ok nevermind.

Yeah! Exams over on Thurs! Time to get a job soon...Ven asked me to teach at certain schools with her since we live so near each other...she's an interesting person you know...I've never really talked to her but since the first day of exam (090507), I wasn't sure how to get to expo, so we met at the bus stop to go together and we've been meeting at the bus stop ever since...and in only like 3 days I feel like I know a loT about her. She's a very sincere friend, and even told me that I have to be more sincere as a friend too, by dropping all barriers and just being myself...but how to do that...after that mlm incident...actually I did learn a lot from nti...but in the end, after struggling for so long, I decided to quit ...do you know how much I feel like a failure after that...But that's a whole different story which hurts to tell...And anyway, secondly, I've never had a proper job before, just because I was stopped by that mlm...and then there's Mr Zen...he keeps appearing in my dreams and I can only wonder why...sigh...

You know, I somehow dread the holidays...haa...and during the hols, i feel i should get rushi's notes to start studying for next...yeah haha let's hope i can walk the walk...gah...

And Sham is at San Francisco! The furthest I'd go this holidays is malaysia haha...Perhaps with sy and the others yeah yeah yeah...

:) Yifang probably don't remember, but she did sent me that picture of Daisuke up there and I made it into a skin yeah! I took a whole year to make this skin and I only completed it because I didn't feel like studying.

What else do I do when I don't feel like studying? Oh I go around and look for spiderman comic books in the library and I have to admit spiderman is my favourite cartoon superhero. I really love his funny remarks during his battles...they are just so very lovable. And I just love his spider sense... Why they didn't they show any of his spider sense in the third movie?? Oh but the third spidey movie is still great anyway hehe...Next up is the Pirates movie yeah!

Ok let's try posting a youtube video hmmm... Ok I got it..."This song is based on a true story from the Hadith. The singer/talker in the story is an old lady talking to Prophet Muhammad (pbuh), but she does not know that he is the prophet. When she learns, she embraces Islam."

Lyrics can be found here: http://www.wharnsby.com/Lyrics/archives/000195.html

I just love Dawud Warnsby Ali's voice, so I thought I'd share...And this song keeps playing in my head while I'm doing my final exams.....I love Rasulallah s.a.w..

April Fools Day! Fred and George Weasley's birthday today! Haha...I can't wait for the movie and also HP and the Deathly Hallows!

Shafiq! I'm funny meh? Haha...And why can't you just organize your own gathering since you want it so much..Maybe in June or something...Now got exams...which I didn't do very well for the Prelims...

Gah...I know I really need First Class Honors...aim for the moon, fall on the stars...something like that...And Nazism is always asking me about updating my blog...nah I update ok:

A weird conversation I had today...

Wei Kian says (6:13 PM):
but well, is ur elder sister in a position to intervene

Wei Kian says (6:13 PM):
or is she like living elsewhere

Wei Kian says (6:13 PM):
coz she's married

*muni* says (6:14 PM):
nah she's here, shes not married, just engaged

*muni* says (6:14 PM):
i guess i can get her to help

Wei Kian says (6:14 PM):
O_O

Wei Kian says (6:14 PM):
got diff?>

Wei Kian says (6:15 PM):
haha ok i didn't noe sorry

Wei Kian says (6:15 PM):
well i guess u can

Wei Kian says (6:15 PM):
if she's open to helping u

*muni* says (6:15 PM):
married is can sleep in the same bed with husband but engaged cannot haha

Wei Kian says (6:16 PM):
what the lol

Wei Kian says (6:16 PM):
i didn't mean it THAT way lah haiyo hahaa

*muni* says (6:16 PM):
u asked wat!

*muni* says (6:16 PM):
thats the most obvious answer hehe

ROFL...Yapyap my sister is getting married in 2009...I think...And she's only two years older than me...I'm happy for her...

Ooh ya my friend gave me a Tsubasa Chronicles manga volume 2 for my birthday...My first manga ever! The best is till Bleach though. (No I don't watch Naruto...no time and not as fun as Bleach.) And who's the coolest villian ever? Ex-Captain Aizen!

But the most kawaii is still Hitsugaya! And the most dumb girl who should really concentrate on her studies is Me! Seriously, I can't repeat the same costly mistake I did last year. So what am I doing online??

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"Good morning Espada. We've been attacked by the enemy. First though, I suppose we should...warm up some tea." ~ Ex-Captain Aizen

Whee...I deleted some of those rubbish posts in my guestbook...haha...don't know what's the point of having the guestbook but nevermind...

And I updated my Pentium3! My computer is so much faster now and I'm feeling so much happier...hehe...also because the camp I organized went well in the end...happy happy happy :)))

Slept the whole day today since I hardly slept during the camp...woke up in the wee hours of the morning to see my little sister laughing over the phone with her boyfriend...

Anyway, exams are coming! I have to go full steam ahead...My prelims start on 28th feb and I need to focus on nothing else but that...sigh...and it doesn't feel like exam period at all...how how how...

Oh my friend introduced me to a series called One Litre of Tears...a very poignant and inspirational story...which I haven't got the time to watch but I will once I can...

And there's 23 days left to a very important day...is it 23 days or maybe I lost count...haha...

Happy happy happy

"but ya *pat* ur a gd fren i really hope the best for"

Gosh, sometimes I feel so down, so useless, so unwanted...and then someone suddenly throws me that kind of sentence and my spirits soar...

And now for those who keep telling me to update: I updated! Now please don't check this blog till 2008...oh and Happy 2007 everybody! May this year be the year of peace!

It's so uplifting to talk to cute guys :DDD

Gah...I don't know why I'm suddenly posting again...though I have no idea what to talk about...and it'll just be another passing phase I think...hopefully less people read this now...and I think my english and vocab has gotten a lot worse...gah...

Anyway, some people still don't know I'm going SIM...I got lousy results...that sucks...but no point crying over spilt milk...anyway, I've changed! I know why I have to work hard now...mostly for my parents...my friends say SIM will be very slack, but I went to the talk at SIM on the 19th they stressed on how tough and packed the studying will be...okay whatever...whats the value of a degree anyway, when we need a lot more than that...

Always begin with the end in mind!

I was excited one day, and down again the next. How fast the excitement died down. How fast my emotions can change.

Everyone wants success, but not everyone is prepared to pay the price for success.

Gah, my sisters hate me...I should stop irritating them...

ARE YOU A CARROT, AN EGG, OR A COFFEE BEAN?
by Mary Sullivan - used with her expressed permission.

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as if as soon as one problem was solved a new one arose. Her mother took her to the kitchen.

The mother filled three pots with water.

In the first, she placed carrots.
In the second she placed eggs.
And the last she placed ground coffee beans.

She let them sit and boil without saying a word. About twenty minutes later, she turned off the burners.

She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.

Turning to her daughter, she said, "Tell me what you see."

"Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied. (You known the tone of voice.)

She brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did, and noted that they felt soft.

She then asked her to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard-boiled egg inside.

Finally, she asked her to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma.

The daughter then asked, "So, what's the point, mother?" (Remember the tone of voice.)

Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity - boiling water - but each reacted differently.

The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.

The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid center. But, after sitting through the boiling water, its insides had become hardened.

The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water...they had changed the water.

"Which are you?" she asked her daughter. "When adversity knocks on your
door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot , an egg, or a coffee bean?"

Think of this: Which am I?

Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity, do I wilt
and become soft and lose my strength?

Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat?

Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial
hardship, or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my outer shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and a hardened heart?

Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water - the very circumstances that bring the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor of the bean. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you instead of letting it change you.

When the hours are the darkest and trials are their greatest do you elevate to another level?

How do you handle Adversity?

ARE YOU A CARROT, AN EGG, OR A COFFEE BEAN?

How do people shop for so long? I'm so not cut out for shopping man...dog-tired I am...from Orchard, Bugis, then to East Coast Beach with Bell...

Oh then on our way to Parkway, guess who we saw? Derek! (Who was on his way to soccer at the beach...hehe.) We asked him to take a picture with us and he refused! Big surprise there. But then that's what makes him so cute.

Anyway, I'm seeing this repeat of history from exactly two years ago, where my blog is pimpled with depressing words and friends start to fill up my guestbook with sweet words of encouragement...

Well I don't deserve to enjoy myself after being so lazy...I'm a smart girl and could have done much better in my As...

But then its over. Just like that.

‘I’m bored,’ said Sirius. ‘wish it was full moon.’

‘You might,’ said Lupin darkly from behind his book. ‘We’ve still got Transfiguration, if you’re bored you could test me. Here…’ and he held out his book.

But Sirius snorted. ‘I don’t need to look at that rubbish, I know it all.’ ~OotP

Alas, I'm not Sirius nor a super-genius like my other friends...so I shall have to, yap, study.

Oh how am I supposed to wait till the 28th to watch GoF???

And that Eric can be such an arsehole . Why does he even bother to ask me why I don't study with him? Which I did on Saturday...gah...I must learn to say no when someone ask me out, to study, to eat or to whatever...

Oh erm...I was just kidding about the slap ^_^

Hate. Cambridge. Dig. Hole. Bury. Me.

Gah...do you know...I have this communication problem...with my friends, my family, with everybody...I can't speak to anyone so I keep to myself and get depressed...

Maybe because one of my greatest fear is of embarrassing myself...in the things I do, the stuff I say...and I had been having nightmares about them too...

One nightmare in which I'm walking in this house where I see the faces of every person I know and all have them have grown to become a successful person and I'm still a nobody, just a disappointment, an embarrassment of this generation of my family...

Sigh...I'm swimming in this gloomy sea of depression and hopelessness which I don't know when I'm getting out of...I'm so bloody pathetic somebody please slap me.

Some quotes from the class which give me a smile:

"Listen attention!"
~Joanne who fused 'listen to the teacher' & 'pay attention' together

"No wonder I got it correct!"
~Maths class when Ms Lam told us one of the answers to the tutorial is wrong

"Cher, I got one question for you: Huh?"
~Asyraf, Maths class, after Ms Lam read a particularly long question, with the reply of a very quiet class

"I'm trying to concentrate too!"
~Adam, GP class, when everyone's quietly doing comprehension & he suddenly read out a sentence from the passage & Ms Wee told him that the class is trying to concentrate

"Cher, each person has two hands!"
~Maths class, when doing a probability question involving the number of ways to shake hands with 8 people.

"Ask the wall, ask the wall!"
~Maths class, when Ms Lam asked Baba a question & he pointed beside him to Shafiq & said, "Ask Shafiq, ask Shafiq!" & Shafiq pointed beside him to Asyraf & said, "Ask Asyraf, ask Asyraf!" & Asyraf pointed beside him to the wall & said, "Ask the wall, ask the wall!"

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And some quotes I'll re-post because it's cute:

"What's manuscript?" ~Shafiq
"It means Manchester United script." ~Adam
(GP lesson)

"I'm going to take off my shoe and throw it at this guy..."
~Shafiq, about Dexter.

"You know, Osama shouldn't kill all those people in the two towers...he should kill this guy instead."
~Shafiq, about Dexter.

"If those people had died, that's it lah. I would seriously run away lah."
~Alvin, when ice-skating with some of my classmates & he made Bernice bump into a group of people.

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And then there's today's Maths class when half-way through a question, all the guys whipped out their handphones and cameras asking Ms Lam to pose so they can take a picture of her, & Ms Lam just stood there covering her face with a paper & in exasperation, shouted, "Liling!" for no reason.

Sigh...I'm going to miss the class.

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And these are the quotes from my rock climbing teachers to motivate myself:

"Concentrate on the process, don't think of the outcome." ~Ms Goh

"Keep going, you're reaching the finishing line!" ~Ms Lim

Bad results bad results bad results...when will I ever learn to discipline myself to study? I so totally don't deserve to watch Corpse Bride on Wednesday...

A friend sent me a picture, my fingers got itchy and I started twidling with the html in the template and VoilA! I made it all by myself, yes I did, my very first skin! GOsh, the stress...argh...the html was driving me nuts and I sat in front of the computer for 12 whole hours straight! Yes, exageration as always...but look at the end product and man the feeling is good! I now officially claim myself as the master of html! Who wants me to design their blogs for them raise your hands!

Ok, kidding, I'm only an amatuer...oh sigh...

Alrighty then, Kaimisuki has gone for a total makeover and I do hope someone comes along to see it...hehe...but will this gal continue blogging? We'll see...and I can't decide about the tagboard either...but I don't care...right now...all I want...is my Zzzs...

Depression...gah...have anybody seen Eric lately? He's either in the school library studying or with Ms Lam asking about numerical methods or something like that...well, ya I'm exagerating...but can somebody please tell me how a slacker can all of a sudden be vEry motivated to study?

I myself am struggling trying to keep up...sigh...went to the beach to study with Bell who fell asleep in the cool wind...and I was looking at the horizon and wondering...how did they figure out that the world is not flat?

Anyway, how just how am I suppose to study when kak bought maryam a 500-pieces jigsaw puzzle for her birthday on Wednesday! And it's still not complete yet. There's two kittens, a black one with orange stripes and a totally white one in a totally pink background of pink cotton wool and pink strings and pink everything! And ya, they just leave the kittens sitting right there in front of my TV, with sweet half-done heads and cute pink noses looking at me with adorable eyes as if begging me to fix them whole...

So that's what I've been doing these days. I also spend time sitting in front of the computer beside my sister, longing to play what she's playing (neopets duh)...Well, she's a billionaire already lah! In neopoints of course...

Other than that...I've been admiring my 5 beautiful sunflower plants I planted from seeds. The flowers will bloom straight after my As end, or so the words on the packet imply...end of As...-dreamy look-...oh, then there's Rainbow, my gorgeous fighting fish (named by my little sister) who accompanies me at night while I study...

Hah...right...I end up reading HP&HBP instead. Heh...I've re-read it once already. Aint Snape just so cool in there...(I'm very certain that Dumbledore forced him to do it in the end). But then...I re-read HP&PoA and realise what a jerk he is...

I really want to read Lymond but I have to admit the vocabulary is a bit intimidating, as cool as he can be...sigh...

I saw Sham's list of things to do after As...wow...The only thing I look forward to is HP&GoF and that Narnia Chronicles movie...sigh...end of As ---regret?humiliation?---

Oh, wow, another entree in this long-dead blog? Ok ok, I miss my Kaimisuki a lot alright. One long post as an update for my rg friends and then another long break before the next update...haha...

Bored?
Mr Bombastick (go to animation and watch those episodes :))
The End of the World
Pie
Illama Song

But please remember to study because...if there's a will, there's a way. And if there's no will, there's nO way...

That's more a reminder for myself...